Sometimes, people need to hear the harsh, blunt truth to get it through their heads. Lets hope this helps justme005. If you want to get better from your sickness, you have to cure it! And if you wanted it cured, this forum would have ended ALONG time ago. It's obvious it's only going to get worse, might as well try to fix the problem before it gets to that point. We can only do so much, you have to do the rest, and that would be to get help.

I am getting help.

I echo J9's sentiments This thread can go on 4 ever with the same result.

My advisor has been calling me every day since I told him my problem to check in w. me. I think this is very nice of him. I will meet up w. him Monday to talk and we will go from there. I had a good 2 nites of no drinking and then last night I blew it by having a black out. So.. I decided to write in a journal everyday since my thoughts are so confused when I'm sober. I have lack of energy and motivation when I'm sober. I feel worthless and hopeless. But I know I am not. Its just a feeling.

Alcohol is a depressant!! Your supposed to feel bad.

Okk so what r your thoughts on the dietary supplement melatonin? It helps w. sleeping... think I shoud try it out, its over the counter.

Stop drinking, and you'll sleep like a baby, and wake up refreshed. Nice try, to change the focus.

I have trouble sleeping if I don't drink though...

Could it be you are passing out? The last thing you need before going to bed is a drink. Your body rhythm is all screwed up, and you need to clean your system out, and get back in rhythm

Okkk I'm starting tonight. I have a ton of hw anyway so I won't be able to party until like next weekend maybe.

Just checking up - how you doing? Did you get the help that you need?

Hey... thanks for checking up! So here's the deal... haha... umm I told my advisor about 3 weeks ago that I think I may be getting off track and I have an alcohol issue. Once I told him I drank for 19 nites in a row and told him the situation he "was concerned about me". So he told me to try and stop for a week and see if I see any red flags (not sleeping, heart racing) all signs of addiction. He called me every day for a week to see how I was doing. After that we just met up on Monday Friday of the next week. He says I need to get some help. I made a promise of not drinking for a week and I drank for like 2 or 3 nites out of the week... so he said he was not convinced I could do it and was very concerned. I told him some sypmtons I was having and he said they were not good. But I told him I was OK and I could do it on my own, I know I could. So we left off that I am not drinking this week. I will meet up w. him Friday. If I break my promise again I have to get help for sure. If not I do not know what he will tell me... ill have to wait and see. So far I am doing good. No drinking Sunday night or Monday night. So I got to make it till Friday. He has been so nice to me and sometimes I regret he knows the real me. He is my advisor and he's an important person in my educational future. Well now he knows what I am going through and hopefully can help me out a bit.

Thanks for your concern ill let you know how my week is going!

If anyone is still out there...

As we all know I always have blackouts when I drink. My head has been hurting so bad all the time now? Do you think somehting is wrong w. me and my body? I am so tired of this!!

Are you still drinking?

Yes but not everyday...

DARLIN! You're not going to stop blacking out, having headaches, losing time until you stop drinking! It's that simple!

Yes, there is something wrong with your body. But I can't tell you if you have irreparable damage to your kidneys or other organs, I can tell you that you're on your way to passing the point of no return.

Honey, you have just got to stop. Having a counselor to help you is a great step, but its not going to help anything if you don't choose to stop.

I know... he's beeen really helpful.. he gave me this sheet survey thing today and told me to fill it out in my spare time. I just did it and of course it says I have a drinking problem. Now tell me something I don't know! Haha. Anyway, we will see what happens. I leave the country to greece on thurs for 10 days so thatll cheer me up! Haha

Greece sounds very nice. Why not take these 10 days and not drink - get it out of your system. You'll be away from your normal crowd... this may be your best chance to start your recovery...

Yea maybe... I've been thinking about this so much and I've come to the conclusion that I cannot do this on my own like I've been saying. I just cant. I need help. I don't know what to do though. I wish this would just go away. I can never sleep if I don't drink. I feel paraluyzed in my sleep, I sweat like no other, I'm jittery. I'm talking to my advisor when I get bak and admitting I want help and don't know how to and don't really want to. Ahhh! My life is scaring me.

Good. I'm glad you've realized that you need help.

Its up to you. I still believe in you, but you must make the decision.