My Mother is Obsessed with Weight?
Okay so my mother is OBSESSED with fat. I am in the average weight for my age, but I do look a little chunky because I am shorter than the average height for my age.
My mother is underweight for a 51-year-old. She has been a nurse for thirty years. I probably go on the computer for three hours a day. The rest of the day, I sleep, play an instrument, work out a really tiny bit, maybe read, and play volleyball outside. But because of how I look, my mother CONSTANTLY tries to force me to get on our treadmill and eliptical. She tells me she wants to "get rid of my belly." She accuses me of being on the computer all day long, but she wouldn't know because she works for 12 hours each day.
Because of all the things I do, this reduces my appetite. For this, I usually don't eat until 7:00 p.m. And then maybe at 10, I'll have a fruit or vegetable. She gets mad at me for this too, because in the past I have thrown up in the middle of the night from eating that late. But that was when I was really little and I would eat junk and lay down which would increase my weight and make me puke. But I only eat fruits/vegetables that late now.
She says many insulting remarks about how I look, and the only thing she EVER talks to me about is how I should lose weight. She yells at me of she catches me trying to have a sweet now and then, and I can't get take out from restaurants that I like because they are "greasy" and "do produce". Is this bullying? If it is, I'm sick and tired of it. I have tried to talk to her about it, but she only says that she's trying to help me and that she is doing nothing wrong. Is she right? Am I overreacting? I have told her that she makes me feel fat and lazy, but she says that she's helping me. What should I do?
My "Best Friend" Called Me a Freak?
Okay so recently I broke up with my boyfriend and my best friend started to flirt with him and all and was ignoring me. You can read more about that in my other questions..
Okay so recently she just texts me one day later in the month and says, "hey." Now this really pisses me off because she just expects to show up and expect everything to be okay. Then we started to talk on the phone and text. But, not as much as we used to. I told myself that I could never love her, (like a sister), like I did. It would never be the same for me after what she put me through.
So one time, I text her, "If **** asked you out, what would you say?" (**** is my ex boyfriend but I don't want to put his name)
She said; "To be honest, I would love to but I couldn't do that to you"
And then I said: "You can, but just give me some time, please. We broke up a month ago and it still hurts."
So she just said: "I understand".
This is the sum of our conversation a week later:
A week later, I ask her, "were you going to go out with **** when we stopped talking?
Her: No. I was just mad at you at the time. So I thought that that would make you mad but I didn't know it would make you like this.
Me: How could you do that to me? I went through hell for weeks! I didn't have ONE person to talk to!
Her: Well sorry. I'll ask my Mom if we can go to Cedar Point this weekend.
Me: I don't think I want to go with you, you are NOT my friend after what you have done.
Her: Whatever. I don't know what went wrong with us, Olivia.
Then, I felt really bad, (I've been following her around like a puppy since we were little because I thought I wanted to be her best friend which I achieved but I still followed her around), so I made a list that took up three whole messages of confessions and "I'm sorry's".
Her: Apology unaccepted.
Me: That wasn't an apology. That was something to get off my chest. I'm now free, I don't have to deal with that anymore. I'm free!
Her: Yeah right. Oh you are SO self centered yeah you're free, what about me?
Me: YOU'RE the selfish one! You have done bad stuff in our friendship too! You're acting like you were a little angel! If you wanted to be free, you would make a list like me.
Her: Yeah no.
Me: I'm letting out my little Smeagol and killing my inner Gollum! Oh, and sorry for being a Lord of The Rings Freak. That's all.
Her: You forgot "sorry for the drama" Oh and get rid of the Lord of the Ring's part. Just freak. That's all.
Me: Listen, this could have ended so much smoother. You don't have to go calling me names.
Her: I'm just calling you what you are. Now I'm going to shut my phone off so it can rest because it's so tired of your bullsh*t. My poor, poor phone.
After that, I went in the bathroom and cried a little bit. She's been my best friend for as long as I can remember. I can't trust her anymore, I don't want t be her friend. But she was my only TRUE friend. Or as I thought she was. What should I do? What did I do wrong? What did she do wrong? Thanks for listening! Buh-Bye! :)
