Miss Helpful,
I feel that involving yourself in fun and frolic, science or literature is really going to be a great escape and diversion for the time being and once time heals old wounds, you will have the courage, power, time, energy and freshness to think anew. I would also suggest you to go thru' science fiction, science facts, scientific realities (hard and soft) and literature on scientific discoveries and such, as it will surely help you gain much and lose what is undesirable. Good luck!