It's been like two months since I've been on this website... Which is good in my case. So I came to the conclusion (with help), that these thoughts are OCD related... I think the exact term is HOCD. I mean it's a relief because I never wanted to be gay and never will, but it doesn't make the thoughts go away. I do exercises I guess you could call them, and they work, but what I have to live with is OCD is pretty much a permanent thing, there's no real medication for it. Although I'll have the thoughts of being gay, I'll always know I'm straight. I also learned that many straight males think gay thoughts, some like them, (I don't lol). Well I guess that's just an update for the people that helped me daily, I still thank them. Later everyone.

Actually, a LOT can be done for people with OCD. As OCD is often related to irrational fear, I can see how a guy could have obsessive compulsive fears/thoughts about being gay when he's not attracted to men. It's just an amped up worry with no basis in reality.

Just as many people with OCD behaviors related to cleanliness (irrational fears of germs), driving (irrational concerns over whether they hit something and didn't realize it) and so on do get help and become desensitized to these worries, and are able to overcome the behaviors and anxiety, so can you.

Please find a good therapist and psychiatrist who specialize in treating OCD. You need both because the therapist will help you with behavioral components and the psychiatrist will manage medication.

Let us know how you're doing. Don't be prisoner to this - you really can be helped.

All right, I'll take that into consideration, I hope my mom's insurance can cover it though :/ because I'm a little tight on money.

I call it OCQ as in Obsessive Compulsive Qualities. It makes me feel better!

I'm not gay though...

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Originally Posted by TMB26

I'm not gay though...

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But I have to ask... so what if you were?

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Originally Posted by odinn7

But I have to ask....so what if you were?

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I have nothing against gays, and there would be nothing wrong with it... But it's not what makes me happy, I do not dandy the thought of being with another man. Quite frankly it scares me. So I don't see it as a quality of mine, because I'm not gay haha. That's all I meant.

And then you may ask, well why does it scare you? And like the one user said, it's related to irrational fear. It's all in this strange head of mine. Haha.

I only asked because after all seemed to be pretty much sorted out here, you had to post a final word as if to assure all of us that you aren't gay. It just seemed odd.

I was bullied and people called me gay and other stuff when I was in middle school. It's an instinct, just always do something to prove your not gay to others...

And what are you trying to say, I'm in self-denial or something? Please give me your opinion, all are welcomed or I wouldn't be posting this.

I was bullied in school as well... many of us were. I was called gay and other things that I won't post here because it really doesn't matter. I'm not gay but I also don't feel the need to prove I'm not to someone. To be honest, I no longer care what anyone thinks.

And no, I wasn't saying that you're in self-denial... I just thought it was odd that you had to have a final post to us to say again that you're not gay... nobody here judged you or accused you of being gay so why the need to let us know again? Who knows... maybe you are in self denial.

I totally agree with odinn7, but that is nothing new. You don't have to convince us that you are not gay. You don't even know us. The problem lies with the fact that you might be trying to convince yourself that you are not gay. You seem to be obsessed with it. But then again it sounds like you focus on many things very hard and can't get passed it.

Ok thanks, I'm just going to end it at this, I've liked girls since I hit puberty back in 6th grade... The answer lies right there because I don't believe you can change someone's sexuality, but I overthank the crap out it really, which relates to obsession... HOCD, I'm positive I got the answer for myself... This is probably the last post you will be seeing from me about sexuality!