Just got 2 restricted calls... im sure it was here, ignored both of them... part of me wanted to pick up but then another part of me was like no, wait it out for longer... just got to do my thing, and hopefully she will come back to me because yesterday it seemed as if she was treating me like she just wanted me as a friend

Having a female come back because she is bored is a crazy thought. Even hoping is a red flag for you to get busy, with your own healing, and rebuilding, before you mind starts playing tricks on you.

Waiting for someone to change their mind, is a complete fantasy, and a waste of time, and will make you miss other options, and opportunities, to be happy just with yourself.

Once you get through the healing process, I doubt seriously if you will want her back any way. Stay with the NC.

Well she called again twice... no pick up from me. Today's my first day of total NC on my part