Bubbles95
It is clear that you are conflicted with many feelings. Talk to which ever of your parents or counselors at school that can help you best sort this out. You may very well not want to have this conversation with your parents if you don't feel that they will be able to handle this topic of the conversation or if you fear that they will treat you or your friend any differently. MY advice to you would be to seek the counseling help of a school counselor and with their help make the decision to speak with someone ( adult in your life) that you can trust. Preferably your parents but understand it's your comfort that will make all the difference in the outcome of these conversations. Maybe you can tell your parents that you are needing to seek counseling for some confusion. Which ever works best. However, get the advice of someone that is specifically educated to help you through this time in your life.