OK I'm not playing with you guys... why woulfd I do that its not right and I wouldn't lie about something like this when I really need help..

Ok people get it right i did NOT try to commit suicide!

Just your mood certαinly chαnges- if this is true then I'm sorry I doubted you

Its Fine You Didn't Do Anything I Can See Why You Thought That..

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Hi hun,
Glad to hear my words hit your heart :)

You remind me of ME and some friends I had in school. When I had bad things like this, I don't really know how I found my way out~ but I did because I knew there was a way! Like others have said, you'll have to trust an adult to help you. It may seem weird right now, but there is someone nearby that can help. Sometimes I even found friends in my mom's boyfriends or my cousins, even one or two teachers. Its nice to sit down and talk with someone about your art, hobbies, music, etc. If you start that way, it becomes easier and easier to start talking to them about bigger things, like what's going on. KWIM? EVERYONE struggles at some point in their life, so you're not alone.. I bet you have teachers who had a childhood like you!

I want you to find something that feels good without being bad. No cutting, or sexual things with your boyfriend. (same guy who talks down to you? HOPE NOT!) Try art or writing (if you don't already). When I didn't have money, I would find chalk and draw on the sidewalk or even the side of buildings. I would write poetry and letters to people. I never liked to keep a journal, but I would write a letter to someone I was mad at to VENT, then tear it up so they'd never see it, and let it blow away in the wind. It sounds cheesy, but it was amazing how much better I felt afterward.

I just had to make up my mind that I was going to have a better life than my parents and they weren't allowed to tear me down.

That's what you need to do. You're a smart kid and you can accomplish any goal you set your mind to! No one can hold you down but you. Just remember that you can have a good life without hurt and abuse, but since you're still so young, you need an adult to help you right now. You can do this.

Thinking of you... <3

Its funny a lot of people say that you remind them of themselves, take it as something awsome if people can see there heart ache and troubles in you and then realise where they are now and there doing so good they overcame it , which means you will too takes the steps you have to get where you want to!

Thanks lotz..

I do write poems! A lot!

Here's one

Do I love him
How do I know
Is there any love left for me to show
How can I find my heart
I thought I loved him from the start
Mow I'm just confused
Not knowing what to do
There has to be a way
Should I let him go
Or should I let him stay
Right now I don't even know
If he stays with me he'll never be able to see
And he-ll always be lost
My heart is what I have to find
And now I finally made up my mind
I'm going to let him go
But it doesn't matter anymore
Because love is something I don't know how to show
The memories I will miss a lot
I guess I will never know if I loved him or not...


So do you like it? Depressing huh? I have more but yeah

Kind of depressing but a good healing process

Yeah...

Here's a little bit of knowledge for you kiddo, love is not supposed to hurt or make you feel sad. If a boy makes you sad more then he makes you happy then he is not a good guy and you should let go.

Yeah... I know but he's addicting I don't know how or why though he just iz unno?

Should I still be hiz friend? Is kind of hard to let go because he understands me and knows me better than I know myself, we've been together for a little over a year now..

So itz not so easy.. :(
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I know but its probably like that for you because you don't get a lot of love and attention at home. But know that yo deserve to be treated well and when he treats you badly or tries to pressure you into anything know that you deserve better because you are worth more then that

Omfg! I can't take it he said "rachael im sorry i know im a bad boyfriend and you dont desearve to be called names and be treated badly and your too good for me"

That broke my heart to here him say that! I need him in my life and I think he truly does care but I understand that it gets hard sometimes so maybe I should give gim a break?

You should tell him that he is on probation and that if he is mean to you or calls your names he is gone and you need to stick to that. You deserve to have someone treat you well all the time not just apologize for treating you bad.

Tell me he must start being nice to you. You have a right to ask for that.

Hun, I hope you're listening to Glinda because she has some rockin' good advice.

When he says he's sorry, its nice to hear. Like Glinda said, you have to put him on probation and stick to it. I'm worried that he'll keep doing rotten things and keep aplogizing so you'll keep taking his abuse. You're young and you have lots of opportunities in life that haven't even found you yet... you don't have to stick by anyone who doesn't treat you right.

Your boyfriend shouldn't be someone who makes life harder for you. You have enough problems with your family... friends and boyfriends should be there to support you, not tear you down in anyway. Remember, you have the right to choose friends/boyfriends. If any of them are bad, they aren't worthy of being part of your life.

Well sometimes you need to talk with someone you don't know someone who won't judge you OK

Ally

SO... thts means I should talk to someone who doesn't judge me? Huh?