[anon21]

Please give me an advice I do not know who to talk about this.

I'm 19 years old diagnosed with TB lymph nodes and I have this big lump on my right side of my neck and it is really swollen. I am taking a 6 month TB medication and I'm already on my 2nd month. I am in pain everyday I could not move faster as it will get my neck more swollen and bigger.

I am having this problem few weeks ago and I noticed myself that Ive changed. I get mad easily when I get angry I don't talk to anyone and remain quiet. When I get angry and get to the limit I cnt control myself & break things even if its hurting myself it feels like I don't care what's gon happen next I want all the hatred & emotions out. Then il cry then il feel better.
In my head I never have remorse on breaking stuff but I just can't control it, after it happened il cry & make myself calm.
I am getting worse and there is no one that can help me Just 2 days ago I went to the hospital and had my hand stitched cause my girlfriend and I had a fight and I cnt control myself when I punched the mirror lots of times it shattered into pieces and I still kept punching it cause of anger.

Plus, I am having a relationship problem with my parents. I feel really depress.

I am really depress, Anger management does not help at all!
Im in pain everyday, sometimes I loose faith in God that I will never be back to normal and have this TB forever.
No one understand what I am going tru, no one understand how pain I am having everyday on my neck with this big swollen lump.
I could not control myself when I get angry I always break stuff and I will end up hurting myself by breaking things.
At home I want my surroundings quiet when my parents talk to me and tell some negative words I go to my room and cry.

Im sorry for the long details of this message, I just don't know who to talk to. :(

[joypulv]

First, are you sure that you have TB form of scrofula (rather than mycobacterial cervical lymphadenitis)? Did you have a biopsy - needle or excision?
Children tend to get the latter and adults get the TB kind. At 19, you could be either one.
TB is treated with antibiotics. Like any drug, they can affect people in many different ways. I tend to get nauseous, and like many women, I get yeast infections. But you are probably taking a whole lot of different ones at high doses, so yes, the sky's the limit with side effects. Just for starters, antibiotics wipe out your 'good' intestinal flora, so you need to eat very carefully, and especially eat a lot of yogurt. Try to get fresh made yogurt for that lactobacillis that helps digest food. Stay away from junk food, fried food, and sodas and sugar and red meats. A little chicken and fish and lots of fresh fruits and vegetables, and of course tons of yogurt.
I can easily see disruption of your digestion making you irritable and even very angry. Tune in to your body and how it feels. Take deep breaths. Think about what feels like what in your body. At 19, most of us are totally unaware of a general unwell feeling turning into anger. Heck, PAIN makes many of us snap at people or fly off the handle.
Answer back if you want to talk about what your diet usually consists of.
Also - do you still live with your parents? I ask because I wonder how supportive they are of what you are feeling, and see that you have had problems with them in the past. Also how willing they will be to attention to food you buy.
And third - do you still have a girlfriend and is she supportive and understanding?