[kashtalent]

Well hello everyone. I really need help. I lost my family. I'm so sad now. I don't even want to live no more. I was wishing the end of the world came on the Mayan calendar. I had triplets this year Feb 2012. When the babies were three months old my babies mom who is 24 had this guy who is 24 coming around who is the son of a over 50 year girlfriend of my babies mom. Well this guy came out of prison and she told me she was trying to help his stay out of jail and get on his feet. Well this guy started coming over more often early in the morning. Then phone calls and texts late at night. Then she applied for him to stay weekends because he was in a halfway house. Also the guy said he was going to move in when his parole was up and he would be allowed to leave the halfway house. I was watching the kids while she went out to do errands but most of the time I think she was with him. Sometimes she left with him and came back with him.

Anyhow July 31 2012 the guy assaulted me causing bodily harm. Now I have a scar on my face. The police showed up and he got arrested the next day. He ended up going back to prison to finish his sentence. Before the police came she left with him while I was bleeding. So she would always tell me he is just a friend and she knows him for 13 years. Anyhow when the police came she made me give her house keys back. So I ended up out of there until a few days passed when my mom and brother went to see the kids I went along. At that time she didn't let me leave and said I should drop the charges against her so called friend and things would be good between us. Well the police couldn't drop the charges so I went to the crown counsel to try and they wouldn't either. I ended up staying with her while enduring jail calls from the guy and she said you put him there I have to talk to him it was torture.

Well Nov. 16 comes the court and I tell crown counsel that she wanted me not to proceed. Well crown counsel told the guys lawyer and she found out from him what I said. After court she left without me and I showed up later and she said I have to leave. Now the court resumes Jan 17 2013. I feel so lost sad alone. I miss putting my kids to bed they are almost 10 months and the two year old. I miss waking up with them. Feeding them changing them playing with them I miss it all. I miss my woman so bad. She has x'd me out. Its like I'm a stranger now. I can not spend the night no more. I see them and then told to leave its heart breaking. I found a letter and a couple cards one Christmas and a birthday card she is going to send to the guy. There in plain English she writes your love etc. how they going to be together.

My two year old say she doesn't like me or love me and that she wants the guy. I suppose my two year talks to him on the phone. I don't know how to deal with all this I really lost my family I'm missing the milestones of my kids lives. I'm afraid when the guy gets out what will happen to me seeing my children. Everyday is filled with thoughts of her and the kids. I go over to see them usually once a week every time I see her I tell her to try and work things out but she doesn't care for me. How could this happen? I feel so robbed I'm missing out on life's joy. I can't stop thinking about her and the kids. I go snowboarding I'm thinking of them. I don't even eat much these days. I don't know how I will get through this. I wish I could have my family. I feel so alone. I'm heart broken. When I visit and leave I feel so sad. Going there I feel anxious. I pray for miracle. How will I stop thinking of her and the kids? This is effecting my whole world. I can not function properly rite now. Please if there is any help out there I would appreciate it thanks in advance.

Sorry this was such a long post and sorry if there are grammar errors.

[joypulv]

You aren't married. Now you have to have DNA testing done to prove you are the father, and go to court for a custody hearing. Of course you have a right to be with your children. Why haven't you tried? Because you have no place to live? Do you work? Where are you living and what are you doing for income? Having babies comes with huge responsibility.

[talaniman]

As emotional and painful as this is, you better handle your business and get child support settled as well as liberal visitaions/custody for yourself through the courts. Handle your business and cry later.