[bwp0622]

This is the situation.. I met a girl and she turned out to be a great person. We both come from the same backgrounds and we've both lived pretty much the same lives. We fell in love after a few months.. and everything was going fine.. until one Friday night, she contacted me explaining to me that we couldn't be together anymore. I become extremely sad from this. She seemed like the one, the girl who could go with me on the long haul, we understood each other and now she was gone... Two days later, the very Sunday. She contacts me again saying that she is sorry and that if I was still willing to be with her then thank you, but if not I understand. Me, dumbfounded, immediately responded back yes saying that no doubt I would take her back. Not suspecting anything our relationship went on... One day.. a couple months or so later.. she expressed to me that she had done something utterly stupid.. during the first half of our relationship she had spent and unusual amount of time hugging and touching and talking to a particular guy who liked her.. he became a problem for me and I told her this.. but now she comes to me and tells me that she had broken up with me, to go to him, break up with him so he will stop being interested in her, and then run back to me. I was completely thrown out of wack and at that point, I was torn to parts. This whole past year I had spent being jealous of how much she was in contact this guy and he became enemy number one for me, but then she went and did this. After she told me that the jealousy went on for me, and I finally go to her and we talk and she tells me that even after what happened she still wants to be friends with him.. with my major conditions of no touching and I even did my best to get her to stop talking to him because he was hurting me very very much every day and I told her this daily.. she continued.. recently.. I finally arrived at a breaking point.. I couldn't stand her talking to guys, being near guys, or even sitting next to one. I broke lose and I was on the verge of leaving I couldn't handle the pain and then.. I finally got her to make a deal with me for her to stop talking to this guy. I thought I was fine and everything was okay.. but it wasn't.. after all this love and care we have for each other and everything we've been through.. we were separated.. two days we can't talk to each other, we can only see each other for about 30 minutes in a day, and I know for a fact she's around guys all day and I know she talks to some guys when she gets lonely when I'm not there for her.. all these things are driving me out of my mind with jealousy I've been rolling on my bed crying, dead inside, and freaking out. I have no idea what move I need to make in this relationship I'm completely blind and stressed out. My shoulders are heavy and I'm undergoing symptoms of depression.. can somebody give me a decent opinion of my situation and maybe a little guidance if you have it in you? I'm gone, I'm totally lost. I have no idea what is best for us. Should I end it to save myself and her all the future trouble my serious problems bring? Or should I stay and continue to put her through these pains? Also please understand that recently, on a day to day basis, she's be doing her best to avoid other guys. But it doesn't phase me, I hurt very much none the less.