[Parcker]

Hey everyone,
I am 20 years old, had been in a relationship for 8 months with this girl who I used to believe that she's " the one". I do not want to go a lot into details, but during our relationship, and as any other couple, we had our ups and downs sometimes; I would screw up sometimes she would... To sum it up , in the end we had a big fight about stupid jealousy fights , then we hurt each others by words so much and said many things we should not , then I got mad and told her that its over!
I felt so bad but I was hurt from her words and I thought if she really loves me she will call me , but she didn't for sure , after 2 weeks I felt so bad and I decided to call her , I asked her if she still loves me she told me yes , then I asked her if we can get back together but she refused and told me we won't make it our personalities doesn't fit together , and she wad crying by the way so do I.
I couldn't believe that she's gone and I got a major depression so I went to doctor then it turned into a nervous disease so I had to go on a very tough medication , I was at home yet , then I heard that she had a new boyfriend after like month or 45 days , that was so tough and I felt so bad that my conditions went far too bad , and the dr told me that I have to go to Psychiatric hospital to stay there for a while , by the way she doesn't know anything about all this and I meant it to show that am doing fine through social network sites so she couldn't imagine sth like this might happen to me , before I go I wrote a letter to tell her how much I loved her and I wasn't that bad , and I accept that she had moved on and that I know there's no chance for us togther anymore not just because you reject but also things changed and wish her tha best of luck but I just wanted her to know that I didn't leave her because I stopped loving her or because I am a player or sth , I gave it to a mutual girlfriend of us she had know all what I;ve been through , she gave it to her but she couldn't help it with the tears so she asked her what is wrong , she told her about me and about what I have faced alone without her and without even telling my friends except that girl , so my ex didn't believe that I had through all this as she was thinking and telling everyone that I hurt her and how bad I treated her (but in a good way ) she's very good person I admit but you know when somebody is hurt he might say or do sth stupid , then my ex told her I shouldn't show up to him now he must get over me , I wish I can help him but I have a boyfriend now and even my existence now will mean nothing to him unless we get back and am not sure of that at all so he has to get over me better for him and you should be by his side
After a week in a hospital , she asked about me but I told my friend to stop telling her any updates and she doesn't deserve (normally I was mad! )
I do still love her till now so much , I found her writing some sort of things like she didn't got over me on twitter and she;s lost and sths like that/
After 2 days I found her texting me telling me that she's sorry for everything that she ever did to me and for saying am bad , sorry for every reaction I mad that hurt me and stuff like this , and then she told you don't had to send me that letter I know who you are very well and I respect you more that you can imagine , and I want to thank you so much for all the good things you did to me and sorry for all the bad things I did to you and I wish you forgive me!
I told her "its okay i forgive you" just like this , she told me thank you so much I wish you the best of luck in your life and I told her I wish the best for you too
Now I feel like she still in love with me and I love her so much!
But I can't forget what I have been through because of her and I don't know what to do if she wants us to get back together and I feel she will tell me so sooner or later I want that so much but I don't is this right or wrong what should I do please help :(