[myyymeee]

Hello guys!
I recently joined a bank and was very nervous about the hectic job and serious work environment. I am an always smiling guy and never get harsh or rude with someone unless very necessary. During my early days of bank, one of my seniors who was given the task to teach me the things/tasks related to my seat became my guide. I knew hardly anything regarding my seat and that's why had to seek his help some hundred times a day but he welcomed me every time and never got his forehead frowned. Also he had to manage his tasks/duties too along with teaching me different things.

He at times got rude with one of my pals who joined the bank the same as I, but never ever said a single harsh word to me, despite the fact I got very annoying at times and asked a lot of questions. He always concealed my mistakes/blunders, welcomed me with a smile, taught me many official things to a great extent, praised my performance on various occasions. All that positive attitude and good behavior made me his great admirer.

He is a father of two little kids, a very well-established back ground and a pleasant personality though very outspoken and utters common abusive language but not even a single bad word for me (unless I know). The admiration gradually transformed into likeness and idealism and now it has been gradually changed into affinity or in more clear words, LOVE. Though loving some one isn't a bad thing, but getting warm and cordial feelings for a man, being a man, and start thinking about him excessively, idealizing him, noticing his every movement, caring for him, and thinking and thinking and thinking about him... these are all definitely not normal things.

But let me explain, I am in great love with him, I use to see his pictures on FB whenever I get time and watch them over and over again. He may be straight as he is a married person with two kids and also gets shy when someone starts talking about sexy and females. I am slowly and gradually losing my mental balance as I can't express my feelings... before all this, I also thought I was straight, but love for him has changed my whole personality/sexuality type. I excessively love and care him. I wish he is also gay or at least feels warmly for me. I wish!

Guys the only way I know to cope with this tensed situation is to transfer myself to some other office in the country, some other branch of the bank or even some other organization. My inner feelings are getting uncontrolled day by day... Please give me some serious suggestions/advices!

[talaniman]

You are too obsessed and in today's world, that's not a good thing and highly suggest you keep it strictly professional at work at all times. Work is no place to get carried away or lose control over these surprise intense feelings.

Focus on the job, learning, and leave the flight of fancy, and fantasy at home. FOCUS on reality. I mean its your job! Heck with your luck, you would run away to a distant place, and the same thing can happen. So deal with this as maturely as possible.