[kawaisoni]

I am 23 years old, and two years ago I started dating an Asian guy who is Buddhist. I am Christian, and I did not mind building a friendship with him. I never thought it was going to become a very serious relationship. I just jumped into the new experience of getting to know him, and from there I started to really love him. I put my beliefs aside and started having sex. I was his first for him. He enjoyed being with me, and said that every time we were together it brought us even closer. Throughout the relationship, I tried to stop having sex with him, I couldn't and we started doing it again. Until this last time, I told him I did not want to have sex anymore because of my religion. He got very frustrated at me, because he said I knew from the beginning to not date him since we were from different religions. Now, he sees me as a hypocrite, and that I pick what I want to follow. He no longer wants to be with me because he says I am always changing my mind, and I am not 100 percent sure of our relationship. He says he wants me to follow my religion and to move on. He has been a very loyal person, and he is very patient with me. I truly feel he loves me, but with the religion on the way, he can't be with me. He says I have changed and I am no longer the type of person I used to be. He mentions that he is not breaking up with me because of sex, but because he wants me to stick to my religion.

That by my religious standard, I should look for someone who wants to marry first but that no guy will ever want to hear that. He doesn't want to wait until marriage. He says he wants to get to know someone before and then get marry. That if I want to get married, to get an arranged one.

He says I can be with him if we go back to the way we used to be. I really know he is a very loyal person, very nice, and forgiving. We have been through a lot, and he has constantly stayed with me, but now, it is very different. He says I can be with him if we go back to the way we used to be. I really do not know what to do since I do not want to have sex, but I do not want to lose him. I just know I am going to miss a really great person, and it breaks my heart it has come to this.