[Shadowflame12345]

Hi I'm male and I'm 15 turning 16 in a couple of months. First to start I've never really had any friends. Through elementary I've met at least one person I consider to be my really good friend but then they have to move. Ive never hanged out with anybody except at school during school. After school its like nobody even knows who I am. It was like that up until 5th grade. I met these 2 really good friend. But once again we never hanged out after school. The next year surprisingly for me they were still there in 6th grade. During recess we would always play with each other with a group of people we always played with during recess since 6th grade. Well anyway back to my 2 friends. One of them had to move. After he moved things was not the same. The other "friend" stopped talking to me as well as the group of "friends" I use to play with during recess. Everybody stopped talking to me. During the last 2 months of school I had nothing to do during recess and did not look forward to it at all. In 7th grade things got a little better I guess. Although I was still a loner. I didn't feel like I was alone though. In every class I had at least one person to talk to. And during lunch break I sat with a couple of people that I talked with also. Although we weren't really friends. I never hanged out with anybody ever in my life. In 8th grade it was practically the same thing. In 9th grade I started eating lunch with the people I played with during recess in elementary. But after a while I stopped eating with them and started eating lunch with the other group of people. (No one cared or even noticed I wasn't there. I kept on alternating who I hang out with during lunch). Well this year it was like that for about 4 months. But then there's this guy I bumped into one day (not literally. I was walking around the halls and he was also walking around the halls and we intersected and was heading at the same direction so we started talking). I knew him from class cause he's 2 of my classes. Well we talked with each other. The next day we didn't talk. But then once in a while we would talk with each other during lunch until it became like an everyday thing. Now I look forward talking with him. But when he has to do something during lunch and can't talk with me I get really bored. I have people I could hang out with during lunch but its just not the same. They never really care if I'm there or not. But sometimes I feel that the guy I met is not my friend or he doesn't consider me as his friend of if he even wants to be my friend. The only reason I think he talks to me is because he just wants to be nice because the only reason we start talking is because if I see him I say hi and start following him. Im not sure if he wants to talk to me sometimes. I think he's just trying to be nice. In class its like he doesn't even know me. And when there is another person he like ignores me and talk with that other person. For example. One time during an assembly we sat with each other. Well he saw a person that he knows. I know that person also and that person is sort of my friend cause we talk a lot but its not the same. Well anyway he calls him over (sometimes I feel like if it was me walking pass he wouldn't be calling me over). Well after that guy came he stops talking to me and starts talking to that guy. Once in a while I would make a comment and he would be like OK... and stuff like that. Im just so confused. I feel like a loser sometimes. Sometimes I would purposely pass him and pretend I didn't notice and him to see if he would say hi to me or something. I don't know if he's my friend or not. If anyone bothered to read this I want help.
(ps. Does this sound gay?)

[TheSavage]

Relax --your OK. You just seem like the kind of person that is not part of any click. What's really wrong with that?Those people that you can hang out with at lunch -- do you really think any of them care if each other is there?Look around you Monday at school and notice the folks that have it much worst than you -- the kids that are tormented because they do not have the right clothes, or because over weight etc.
By the way --what gay sound like? Happy?--Savage