[dontforgetkate]

I'm 21, he's 24. We've broken up in January this year. He broke up with me because we were fighting a lot and "he couldn't do it anymore." He cried in front of me for a whole week every time I tried to talk about it, but he was determined to be done, because every time we fight, we'd make up and go back as nothing happened, and the same fight would burst again. He said, all of these fights hurt more than it hurt not being with me. I realize I've caused him a lot of pain, I was the emotional abuser in the relationship.

We dated for 2 years, the week before we broke it off, we were even looking at apartments to move in together. We had talked about our future together and all.

Anyway, it's been 5 months now, and I can't move on for the sake of pete. I've not kept in contact with him at all besides to get back some stuffs of mine. I've hit the gym, gone to classes, hung out with others, and even tried going on dates. But I still miss him, no, not miss the feeling of being with someone, I miss the kind of person he was - he was sweet, caring, resilient, warmhearted, he was a good person. I fear that I won't ever find somebody else who's as good as a person like he is, and as compatible with me as he is also. But he seems to be happy already seeing some other girl 2 months post our break up because his friend recommended her to him after we split. How can he forget me so easily? And though I've tried so much, I can't shake him off my mind. I know I've done some awful things, but when will my misery end?