[liverpool75]

Hi folks I need some advice for my own health issues,I'm living with my partner who I'm with the past 13 years,we have 3 kids together and twins on the way.when she's pregnant she gets it bad with sickness and her iron levels drop so she hasn't got much energy.im out of work at the moment myself and luckyly I am because she's relying on me a lot understandably.my problem is I feel like my head is going to explode.normanly when I close my eyes at night I'm restless and a million things are going through my mind but this is happening while I'm awake.I feel like I've a miilion things going on in my mind and a lot of things are bothering me.im getting a lot of headaches lately possibly due to stress.I normanly do nearly everything at home anyway get the kids to school,washing and I do all the cooking.my partner has become a nightmare.she's constantly shouting at the other kids,my kids are on eggshells around her.my friends are getting tired of me because every time they ask me to go out with them I have to make an excuse to say my partners not well or something else when really she's nagging me and saying if you go out don't bother coming back and then using the kids as a weapon.im doing the best I can and I don't go out much.once a week to my friends house for a few beers and she has a problem with that.to be honest I don't even think I love her any more due to all this.and I know when a woman is pregnant she can be hormonal but to be honest she's always like this and she can be very lazy.I feel like I'm trapped her with her just because we have kids together and if I ever left she would start the your not seeing the kids.and my kids are everything to me.please don't tell me that I shouldn't be having kids with someone who I don't love.I did and stiull love her in some ways but she is driving me away with her attitude.she has no friends only mine and they haven't got much time for her.they only put up with her for my sake.I feel terrible for being on this talking about her but I need to talk to someone.my own health is going down the drain.when I do get to go out all I get is were are you going,what time will you be home at,and when I do go out she rings me all the time.im getting so angry and depressed I nearly overdosed before on painkillers and self harmed myself.sorry for the long story believe it or not that's not everything I've tried keeping it short.thanks in advance for any advice.