[Darius.m]

So, I have known "Jane" for at least 3 years. We hang all the time and have had sleep overs countless times. I have always kept my feelings for her a secret, because really, I just want to see her happy, and I was afraid that it would ruin things.
I help her a lot: Her boyfriend issues, bad parties she was at, family issues. I'm always there to help her out, and always giver shelter when she has no where to go. Not because I want something out of it, but because I care.

Lately, I confessed everything to her. And she then told me that for the longest time she wanted to sleep with me. (please note, that she has a boyfriend and they are on and off). Eventually, we planned to hang out and she kept telling me she was super excited, and we were sort if sweet talking each other to. Eventually, her and her boyfriend were on a break, and we had a sleep over for two days. We snuggled and nothing happened the first night, even though we slept in the same bed. The 2nd day however, we went to bed, she kissed me, and eventually, we made love, and she clearly said that's what it was. So did I...

We did the samething twice the next morning, and then showered together. She complimented me for not staring at her other body parts, because I kept looking right into her eyes.

Eventually, her bf/ex boyfriend picks her up, and then she said she missed him, and Is scared of everything.

We worked stuff out, then it happened all over again. Except when I ask her what are her feelings towards me, or why she keeps throwing me away, she doesn't want to tell me. But she does say it's overwhelming.

My problem is that she knew I loved her, but I don't understand why she would sleep with me and then leave me.

Now she has been cold and has been saying it's because she is a bad person. I feel like a fool, and I also feel used and worthless. I love her, and don't know what do. What does she want? She complains about her boyfriend all the time, but doesn't leave him. And sometimes even said that she might be happier with me...

What do I do? What is happening?