[Mbeaugeois]

I'm 18 years old and my boy is 17, he's very mature for his age which is why I'm with him. We've been together for 7 months now. He claims he does everything in his power to make me happy but I never seem content with anything. I've lost friends because he's close to them and it drives me insane, I end up hating these girls for it. I've seen him check girls out while I'm with him and it eats me up inside because I feel like I'm not good enough for him. He always tells me he watches porn and that makes me sick thinking he gets pleasure out of watching other girls... This is all driving me crazy.

I seem to be the only one in our relationship to constantly have a problem with him, he never has a problem with anything I do. In a couple months he will be off to schoolies with his friends and no doubt will be drinking and be around thousands of young slutty girls, I can't deal with the thought but I know I can't stop him from going. I'm just confused because when we started dating people told me they were surprised I'd go for him because I was better looking, so I'm confused as to why I'm the jealous one and he isn't at all. I think all this is slowly driving him away although he doesn't want to say it.

I keep thinking the only way to fix it is by breaking up but I know that's going to kill me and it's not an option right now. I don't know how to fix it because it's not fair on him and it causes me so much pain... I have no idea where to go from here :( help me.