[lostgirl94]

I'm 17 years old and last year a lot of drama went on that has wrecked me as a person. I used to be a bubbly, happy girl but I have always been locked out by peers and best friends have always seemed to hurt me or stab me in the back. I am admittedly an ex self harmer and suffer badly with depression. I started college the year before last and met this girl who I thought was lovely, we got talking and become friends and she left for an apprenticeship... we stayed good friends (best friends you would probably call it). She met somebody at her workplace and cheated on her boyfriend with him, this sent her relationship on a downward spiral until they broke up. Her mum kicked her out so me, my boyfriend of nearly four years and his family took her in. She took advantage of us until I left to stay with my mum till she left. She finally left but then started texting my boyfriend all the time. It got to the point where she was texting him up to 27 times a day and what she was texting was extremely upsetting to me. She was texting things like "finish with her, i'll keep you from being lonely", "your too good for her", "im better then her, I have a better body than her", she even went as far as accusing me of sleeping with her ex boyfriend :( me and my boyfreind nearly split up because of the strain it put on our relationship. She then ended her friendship with him because he chose to stay with me. The last contact from her was new years eve. I now find that I'm really emotional, I'm insecure and I have no confidence. I am sinking into a really deep depression and no longer feel good enough... What can I do to get my confidence back? Me being this way is now putting even more strain on our relationship and I feel like I'm losing everything I used to be.

Please help :(

[Swiss_Ms.B]

Hi lostgirl 94
Anyone who would have put themselves out there to help someone, as you did, would be going through the motions for being betrayed and emotionally stabbed in the back. You have experienced something rather traumatic when it comes to relationships, especially at your age. Are you still in school? Could you go to a school couselor to get some support to work through your experience and emotions?