Finding my lost love
I have found my childhood sweetheart , we were very close through elementary school and I had to move away when I was 12, I really never got a chance to tell her goodbye, we managed to write back and forth for several years. Her family came to my home town to check out a college for her and we met for a night out. We tallked about old times and future plans. At that time I was dating a woman who I married and have been happily married to for 36 years. We never saw or heard from each other after that last meeting. We can still remember that last night.
I have thought of her over the years many times, and I put a message on Classmates, looking for her. Out of the blue, she sent me an email, she had just lost her husband to cancer about 6 months prior to that.
We started to email back and forth and then talking on the phone, this relationship has snowballed and neither one one of us expected in our wildest dreams that this would happen.
Let me explain that I still love my wife very much, and she is the only one I have ever been with. I do not want my marriage to break up, but I am torn. My first love has opened me up to new excitement, we can share about anything. She is also very adament about breaking up my marriage because she does not want that to be the reason we would be together. This new relationship has gone on steadily for about 6 months now and has become special to both of us.
I would like to know if anyone out there has had a similar experience and how they deal/dealt with it. We had not spoken for 40 years and it's like we have never been apart.
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