I am paranoid about my girlfriend. I am desperate and depressed because of this.
During secondary classes a girl got my number, and we became friends. During my college first year she proposed me. We live far away from each other (300) miles. At that time I was having a love affair with another girl. I hid this to that girl and I was maintaining two love relationships simultaneously. Both genuine and true.
But to my dismay I met with an accident, and that I was maintaining two affairs simultaneously was disclosed by someone to those two girls. One of them left me, and the other was begging me to accept her. I became depressed after the accident and was under severe psychiatric treatment. She on the other hand tried to commit suicide twice because of my absence but was saved. And in my absence she kept contacting all my friends to get in touch with me. She spent a lot of her fathers money and sacrificed many things. She says even if I am a psycho she wants me only.
Now I am fine and she's getting many alliances from foreign but she s refusing everything. She still loves me a lot and I too love her. But in her past before I came into her life she has had some boy friends, but not close friends at all. She her girlfriends, and those guys had gone out twice to marry brown and some of her friends had been to her house during her birthday party before she came in my life. But I am not able to accept those things. If I tell my friends that I am getting paranoid thoughts about that girl they would kill me as everybody know her purity. And she abides by my words even if it is stupid. But the real problem is that I am obsessed with paranoid thoughts about her.
Since we live far away I have no clue what she is doing. She is a very modest and god fearing person. But I suspect her whether what ever she told about her past is true or not or is she a flirt or has she been with guys alone. Is she lying to me or cheating on me etc etc. I can't get these thoughts out of my head. I was cheated by a girl once before I got into this relationship and I am not genuine and pure. What should I do! Help me please.
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