[madabther]

HI,

I had a galfrn before!
Who dumped me, Brok ma hopes.. I knew her since my school days. I liked her as ma best friend before.
Once we had been to a school trip. I used to hide and see her. She also saw me seeing her. Fews years latr I told her that I Love her. She said that she would agree oly if I love her through out her life. I was OK wit it.

She hd a boyfrn before me. Which she was tryn to hide tntil I proposed her. When we both wer togthr she used to cry when she thot about him!.
I used get hurt vry badly and cry when she used to cry for him when she is ma gal frn, She oftn used to say that she loves me a lot. But I felt that oly for few days.

She used to tke me to her hom when no 1 is at her plce. We got physical, she was always speaking most about sex to me.

I thot she seriusly luvd me!

She strted ignorin me..
Nvr replied most of my messgs.
I used to go mad about her.. Wait fr her hours togthr in the place we usually used to meet.. She nevr askd me to meet.. I used to go and wait tntil she reachs d bustop..

Once she tld me that she is a sterile and she won get kids and askd me fr brk up.. I actly didn't bother evn if she cn get kids o nt.. I wantd her oly her..

I used to love the way she used kiss me. She nevr showd me any care o love aftr she gets sme physical enjymnt.

Few days later she told me that she needs a brk up.. Wic I was not willing for. She left me vry badly.. She didn't evn luk behind when she was going. I couldn't control my slf and strtd crying vry badly.. She didn't care fr it. I again went behind her.. She strtd to shout at me.. I Jus cam back hom cryn!

I nvr wantd to cry!
In fact I nvr cry.. I cudn contrl when she tld she needs brkup. And nevr wan to see me again, nevr wan to meet me.

I felt that I was used becoz she wantd som relief from her daily borin life. Felt vry bad. I evn cut my hands, I am alive oly for my parents.

Its been one long year till tody!
I miss those days wic I spnt with her.. I need her back... I am still mad about her.

Please suggest what should I do nw to frget her completely..

I don wan to get up in d midnite and thnk about her, M vry badly hurt..

I miss her when evr I see any couple togthr!.

Please help me out.