[mzcutie]

Hello!

Well my problams a little complicated,

I've been with this boy for 2 years 9 months and I'm crazy about him... he obversally loves me, I'm his first ever girlfriend and he's my first ever boyfriend, wev'e spent a lot of time together in the past and spent some great intimate firsttimes together however...

I understand its really important for both of us to have time out with our own friends but I feel so pressured as all my corsework has to be in a day after my birthday (23rd) and I'm so behind, and so is he... yet today he managed to go ut with his friends and have a propa good tym... I went on msn after spending a whole day feeling sorry for myself and it seems everyone had a blast of a time and yet no-one botherd to invite me or anything... I have plenty of friends or so I thought but today I've felt so lonely, and I've been feeling so lonely a lot recnetly but its become so constant I actually prefer to be on my own now... and I'm constantly pressuring my boyfriend if he forgets me or anything because atm I have nobody else, and I'm also very shy and have problams propa talking to people as I get worried if they find out too much there through it back in my face if we ever fell out... urgghh! There's so much I want to say but I don't want to bore you.

Its have you ever felt so lonely thet thers just no point? And you kind of feel lyk letting everyone go... or you wish summit mega happnd to u... just to see how many people actuali give a damn... and how am I surposed to keep such a wonderful boyfriend if I have no confidence in myself to liv up to him!. I want to be sum1 he can show off... but thts neva guna happn I guess

[talaniman]

Relax, I've had the birthday blues and was alone when I really wanted people who care to throw me a party or at least send a card, but the hell with that, take the time to go do something you really like for yourself and tell that boyfriend since he can't remember your birthday, go to bloody hell. If no one else cares make sure you do.