Dear Brother
You said you are well educated, there are so many scientific proofs in the quran of the greatness of Allah. Allah said he can forgive you anything even if your evil deeds are like the foam that it`s in the ocean (the foam from the waves) but the only thing he doesn`t forgive is shirk (disbelieving in him). But Allah is most mercifull, He Loves people who repent, let me say this again Allah Loves people who repent : Imagine this brother Allah the Lord of the worlds, the creator, the magnificent, the mercifull, the kings of kings thinking about you, you one of his servants, one of his slaves, tiny little slave, and how about loving YOU, yes YOU little brother, Allah will love you and be pleased with you if you repent with a true repentance and ask him to forgive you. Don`t forget death comes quick and fast at anytime what woud be your answer to Allah in the judgement day, before that have you taught about the punishment of the grave? Save yourself as soon as possible read surate "Al ghashia" surate number 88. Ask Allah to guide you to the right path. Ask him to increase your knowledge in your life and in your religion and watch.
Assalamou alicom
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