Rebellion
It started when I was about 15/16, I just started to argue about everything with everyone if I disagreed with what they were saying. I had strong opinions forming and I would stand up for what I believed in. As I got older I understood people would always have conflicting views and respected that but still had strong opinions myself. I started wearing different clothes to everyone else and just didn't want to be like anyone, and I still don't.
Now I'm 17 and I thought that it would calm down a bit as I got older and I wouldn't want to rebel so much but it's got worse. I like who I am and don't want to change myself but this constant urge to rebel against everything is getting too much. I got some trainers about a year ago and I love them but now there's a few people at college who have them so I went and got some different ones just because I didn't want to be even slightly the same as anyone.
No one really questions it and just let me get on with it but I wish people would understand the way I think a bit more. I've got a boyfriend and lots of great friends around me but sometimes I feel quite alone because no one understands the way I think, or why I do things, or think the things I do.
Does anyone know why I keep having these urges to rebel and be different from everyone? I thought it could be part of growing up but it's getting ridiculous!
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