[PhilIvey]

I hated my dad my whole life. He had a really bad temper ever since I could remember, he was just absent from my life, even though my parents are not divorced. He has done many horrible things when I was younger, hitting everyone in my family, trying to kill my dog, always arguing with everyone, he even took out a knife on my sister and threatened to kill her and himself when I was like 12.
I was scared of him when I was younger I wouldn't really talk back to him while arguing I would just go in my room and cry. But now that I'm older I'm no longer going to be a ***** and say nothing.
Today I had a big argument he started for nothing. He grabbed me like he was going to punch me and I punched his face and got into a fist fight with him for the first time. I told him everything that I was holding inside. I told him I never liked you, I told him you have an anger problem and that he is crazy and pathetic.
I feel relief actually that I punched him in the face and told him everything but at the same time depressed that I had such a negative father, I rather have no father to be honest. I blame him for everything that is wrong with my life. I try to be friendly with him by small talk but he always does something that makes me not want to ever talk to him again. But today is different... I got into a full fist fight and things got really crazy. I work with him in the family business. I don't know how to face him. I just want him out of my life. This experience has given me more motivation actually. Motivation to to work hard and build a good life and have him out of it. That would be the ultimate satisfaction for me... Have him regretting ****ing with me. Sorry for the wall of text. Thanks you reading.

[0rphan]

Hi Phillvey,

I wonder where does your Mum fit into all this, does she just put up with his anger?it is very sad that you and your family have had to put up with this behavior for such along time.

I am not surprised that you lost it,pressure would have built up over the years it was bound to spill over at some point, you can only keep it under control for so long.

You say you work with your dad in a family business, this is going to be hard after these events.I think the best thing that you can do if at all possible, is take yourself out of this situation and try and find yourself a new job.

Your dad may actually take stock of what has happened, after all no one would have dared stand up to him before,he may think on the things that have been said and realise what a total pain he has been to you all.It could be it just might bring him to his senses,especially if you said you were leaving,only time will tell.