[riverwolf]

I just need someone to listen to me judgment free can anyone help

[tickle]

Set it all down here, riverwolf.

Tick

[riverwolf]

I don't know where to begin I'm so frustrated no one seems to under stand I just want to know someone believes me that I'm not crazy that what I feel and what my body tells me is right this may get kind of crazy and complicated if you want to back out I completely understand

[Wondergirl]

I'm here too -- judgment free. Start at the beginning.

[riverwolf]

All right I know this is goanna be kind a weird but here goes I am having a lot of problems with my health I am over weight and I know it I know that things would be essayer if I were not so heavy but it is not the cause of all my problems you can't imagine hoe frustrating it is to have every one tell you that if you would only lose the weight you would have no more problems it doesn't work that way I have gone to doctor after doctor with my problem and the only awnsers I get I its all in your head and if you would just lose the weight you would be all better it makes me feel like the lowest slug on the ground I have thought many times that it would be essayer to just end it then I would not be n pain any more I just don't know what to do no one understand I am second guessing my own sanity can I really trust my body my instinct's that tell me there is something not right or am I just crazy is it all just in my head I don't know any more the pain feels real

[Wondergirl]

I don't believe it's all in your head. What are some of the problems you are having with your health?

[tickle]

Alright I know this is goanna be kind a weird but here goes I am having a lot of problems with my health I am over weight and I know it I know that things would be essayer if I were not so heavy but it is not the cause of all my problems you can't imagine hoe frustrating it is to have every one tell you that if you would only lose the weight you would have no more problems it doesn't work that way I have gone to doctor after doctor with my problem and the only awnsers I get I its all in your head and if you would just lose the weight you would be all better it makes me feel like the lowest slug on the ground I have thought many times that it would be essayer to just end it then I would not be n pain any more I just don't know what to do no one understand I am second guessing my own sanity can I really trust my body my instinct's that tell me there is something not right or am I just crazy is it all just in my head I don't know any more the pain feels real

Okay, riverwolf, I get it, but please use some discipline and follow our guidelines; use proper english, break up your paragraphs with sentences and start over again.

You have very low self esteem and that is the problem, right ? So we get you out of that by talking, but we can't unless your cooperate and take it slow, one sentence at a time. No kidding.

Tick

[riverwolf]

Well I have never had a regular cycle in fact 7 years ago it stopped for no reason and then about 5 months ago I started it was the worst thing that I have ever felt it lasted about two months that was after not having one no lining growth in essence I was in menopause then just two weeks ago it happened again so I went to the doctor and he blew it off saying that it wasn't a cycle that I was a problem with my bowels or my balder like I was just making it up to get attention and I work with my mom she is home bond she can't walk on her own so I have to pull on her a lot an I have in the past hurt my shoulder badly and I can not use my shoulder or arm any more and no one will take me seriously its like they don't want to take the time to care that they can not see past my weight that's all I am to them but I'm so much more ten that I get so sad that I cry myself to sleep I know my body I know when something is wrong and I have a felling that something ruptured that's why I was having a cycle I'm at my wits end some times I just want it to end thanks for listening

[Wondergirl]

Will you tell us how old you are?

[riverwolf]

I am 27 years old

[Wondergirl]

One important thing I learned when I worked for two years in a physical therapy department was how to move patients without killing myself (or them). Does your mom have a visiting nurse who will come over to show you how to move her so you don't hurt yourself?

Have you tried more than one doctor (i.e. gotten a second opinion) about your physical problems?

[tickle]

Hi river, thanks for giving us more information. I didn't know till now you were a female, because of your avatar, I thought possibly a male. We can follow you a lot better when you post if you just break up your paragraphs with sentences.

It is great hearing from you again.

Tick

[riverwolf]

Yes I got a second opinion. That doctor just told me to live with it. He said that there was nothing wrong with me. That it was not a problem. Like I was making it all up.

[tickle]

Yes I got a second opinion. That doctor just told me to live with it. He said that there was nothing wrong with me. That it was not a problem. Like I was making it all up.

Then this is a family doctor, right? You go to another doctor and get a third opinion, river. That is all there is to it. A fresh doctor, a fresh opinion. Assert yourself until you get results. It is your body and your health.
Tick

[riverwolf]

I'll try that thanks.

[tickle]

I'll try that thanks.

Yes, try it... your post doesn't seem to give much in the way of really trying, but once you get your dander up, river, and realize that no one is going to give you a hard time if you can help it, then you get things done. Until then, nothing will be done. Do you think we ALL have confidence, no way, but once it gets down to basic needs, then you have to make it a point. I have had to do that for my son, myself, my mom, now gone and even stepped into my husbands shoes who is not particular thankful for anything I do for him, but if I NEED IT DONE, THEN IT DO IT.

Hug

[tickle]

River, I really like your avvy and your name by the way. Can you tell me how you came by the name 'riverfox'. I know you are from Alabama so is this a fox species in a way. We have foxes here on our street in Ontario which is really very rural; they are a small species, no bigger then a beagle and very thin, red and white and black.

Thanks

[riverwolf]

Thanks for listening the name is a nickname for a retriever because of the color and proportions

[riverwolf]

I need some one to talk I need to get this off my chest

[Fr_Chuck]

There are many of us out here, what would you like to tell us