[bailaamo]

I have known this straight guy for two years. We didn't have a strong friendship, until recently we began talking a lot more. Since leaving college, we have hung out a lot more too, but we have only hung out late at night. Hanging at the park, sitting on the swings and discussing our future, our friendship and how we could have been friends over those two years. We instantly began flirting, and the fourth time we met we kissed, and we instantly began cuddling.

Lately I have invited him back to mine and we just watch TV, but recently we have kissed a lot more, and I catch him staring at me, and when I ask what he is staring at he instantly replies you mean so much to me. I smile and realise I could really fall for this guy, but with me being gay, and him being straight, we have discussed if he ever would chose being gay. He said he would always want to experiment, but if he felt it was right, he could give a gay relationship a go.

At this point I am so confused, I am beginning to really fall for this guy. We text, and call every day, we flirt, kiss, hug every time we meet. Is he just playing games with me and am I slowly becoming his experiment. The more I fall for him the more I feel I should be pushing myself away, I have never being so close to a guy.

We keep both of our worlds private, and don't introduce either of us to our friends. He is afraid our friendship will be ruined, and that his ex girlfriend will hate him, because she is still in love with him and he still cares deeply for her, but says that he really likes me.

Am I playing with fire? Is he just playing games, or is this something genuine, it just doesn't seem real. Last night we stood in the rain for two hours, soaking at 4 am cuddling, and talking, and he whispered in my ear, "when I am with you it is like everything disappears". I am confused what will ever come out of this and I am afraid I am getting to close for comfort, and emotionally involved in someone that could really make me happy, and sad at the same time.

We are both in our early 20s, and I am starting to think this could be a summer friendship, that could turn to something special, or I could end up being seriously hurt. The last two summers I was hurt so much by other people, I am so scared to 100% trust this guy, is he out to hurt me? Am I slowly becoming his experiment? We have not had sex, and he doesn't discuss it, he just wants to cuddle, kiss and stare at me, Help?

[J_9]

He is not straight. He is either gay curious or bi curious. Straight men don't kiss other straight men.

[talaniman]

You don't need help. You need to get a grip on reality, and listen to what your brain is telling you instead of following your heart, and protect yourself, and your heart.

For whatever reasons you want to give it to yet another, you better make sure he deserves it, and knows what to do with it. I think you are dead on thinking he may be just experimenting with you, and I advise the utmost caution, so you can at least enjoy the distraction for what it is, and not get to close so you get hurt.