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The forum I read your story on wwas closed but I found one on detox as that is wwhat I was reseaching and I felt my story would in turn insprie someone else to be able to imagine a better life wihtout crystal meth, I'm not sure how these forums work I have never done them before but I wanted share with you, your story helped me to open up... its a bit long haha but I hope this finds you well and happy :)

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Hi everyone

Well this may look and sound like an very worded answer to the question stated, but I trust those who read this will see how it relates to the question and how detoxing, natural remedies and healthy balanced eating will help you succeed with the addition of "tina" and over come. I would agree with lovelessspa, all of the recommendations holds true, and so dose that old saying.. you are what you eat. :)

I have been a user of meth since 2006, in 2008 I started injecting and my life literally changed over night.. while using meth I lost almost 40 pounds, I became hiv positive, hep c positive(which through treatments and determination I successfully no longer have hep c... )i lost my health, I left my job, my career, I literally left my life, for 3 years I was a different person. I was doing things that was not myself, I'm a very caring person and would only ever want to help others in need but I was not doing any of that. I lost the happy, out going social and good friend to others that I was. My body and health changed so much so quickly I had to decide if I want to live or if I wanted to die?? In 2010 I decided to live. It really is not only to stop using meth but it should be an entire journey, of becoming one with yourself again, physically, mentally and spiritually.

I was clean for almost a year and things are getting back on track, work, friends, living. And through these new life changes I am instilling within my-self, my eating, my day to day, my everything, it has and will always be this life journey with myself and my body, to care for it and be proud of it, and it really has been for the better.

Like Brodio from Montreal, I have had been dealing with MRSA, hospital vists and admitting, and sores all over my body and face, the physical scarring has been un-reverseable, but through a mental change on my out look on life and learning new ways of over coming the past that brought me to start using drugs, it is helping to adapt to seeing myself and accepting this time when I was not one with my body. If anyone has these sores from there use and are still using, please, please, please learn from my experience and save yourself, remove all mirrors, don't be alone even for 5 min while you are using or coming down, and buy a pair of thin moisturizing gloves and the second you start touching your skin put those on and do not take them off until you know you will not bother skin. Start seeing a councilor, they are objective and non judging, if you can be honest with them they can help you. One natural health product that SAVED my skin is an oil called "tamanu oil" look it up on line and get yourself some. Its affects and health beneifits were life changing to me and helped me to get back out in the world again even with my scars. It has been 5 years since I have worn a t shirt due to the emotional affects these scars have had on my life. Tamanu oil is not recommeded for people who have a nut allergy but there is a similar oil with the seem benefits call "emu oil" it is harvested from the glands of an ostridge bird, humanely. Tamanu oil is a fruit nut based oil.

The reason why I decided to provide a more indepth insight like this, is because of brodio in montreal forum which is now closed but his words from 2008 spoke to me and I thank him for sharing his experience, over the last couple of months I started using again here and there and last night was the worst relapse I have had, I woke up looking in the mirror saying NO! I will not do this to myself again, I now have those sores on my face and body, form bothering my skin, I looked in the mirror and refused to allow this to start happening again. So I went on line to find out about detoxing myslef form what I had just put in my body and came across his brodio's words and all of his experiences related to mine, so I hope my words today can help someone relate and inspire them to make a change, your friends and family ,even though they may not be able to help directly as only you can decide to make this change, but they are still there waiting for you and they miss you, and they have faith within you to overcome this addiction, even if they can not relate they do understand. I know this answer my have gotten what seems side tracked to the original question but all of these events and damaging effects this drug has had in my life did bring me to finding natural detoxing through food, and other products that assisted in the abitity to enter the world once again, even though I have had this relapse it really has shown me that this drug is not worth this. And each and everyone one of us are better and stronger than a few chemicals mixed together in someone's bathtub.

My mom said few words to me back in 2001 before I even started to dabble in the world of drugs, she said in so many words... "it may sound simple but you really only can take this life one day at a time, focus on today and a better tomorrow will happen on its own, and you must, MUST get rest, if you dont get rest your mind will not think properly, and you will not think rationally." Those words have helped me in my darkest hours. The same holds true with eating right and healthy, your mind will have more clarity. The year I was clean of meth was so uplifting and encouraging to myself. So I have been doing just that, focusing on today, I got rest, I ate well, I spoke to a friend and told them I was have troubles with my drug use again and that I didn't want another 5 years to go by wihtout reaching out to those who can help and he thanked me for that. And I thanked him.

I don't know how this forum works I have never done it before, but if anyone has further questions please do not hesitate, I will do my best to answer and help you anyway that I can with my experience's. Lets start talking about Meth and what illusions of grandure this drug has to intise someone to try it even one, that usually if not 100% of the time ends up to be years if not a life time of sadness and consiqunces.

All the best to those who have made the choice to make change and for those who have not yet thought about a life without meth, there is a much better life waiting for you, please just don't take almost 10 years of drug use and lost opportunity to make that change.

Have a wonderful day everyone and perhaps only one or two people may read this , I trust it will spark change within you, I know just by taking the time to write this has helped me. If I or someone finds another forum that this message could relate to or you think may help please copy and paste and share

Sincerely,

Phase 3 from toronto canada

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