[erica2009]

Hi all,
Im 2 years married and I'm so unhappy... long story here goes, I am with my now husband for 14 years we are both 34. We moved in together after 10 years together and after 2 years all was blissful, well as it could be, we got engaged and were planning our big day, the few months coming up to it, he started a college course and started something with some girl, I didn't know at the time, but he was staying out (nights out with friends, staying over at his folks) I never thought anymore of it at time, as I trusted him, run up to wedding stress of the day etc he told me 3 weeks before he didn't love me and walked out of house, came back 2 days later, with sorry I just got pre wedding nerves, we put it behind us, had a fab wedding day (even though it was on my mind on the day that he had said that,) went on honeymoon, happy ever after... 5 weeks later I logged onto my mail at home and it hopped into his mail, (he hadn't logged out) I found 14 mail correspondances with a girl from his course, basically they had an affair and he was telling her to mail him every day that he was bored, and flirting and innuendos back and forth, (whilst I was on my sun lounger in Malidves... So I found the mails, he came clean said they liked each other but nothing happened, ( I since found out he was with her for the last time the day wedding invites went out, 6 weeks before wedding) and he left course, he is so ashamed and so sorry, I believe him, but part of me thinks he only is ashamed cause of my hurt and sadness and disbelief, I think he feels like this as he was caught, anyway its like being married to a stranger, he is so sorry but trust is just gone, I want to be married to him and happy but it never ever ever goes away, can anyone give me some advise please?? Xxx