[jln33]

I'm 16 living in the UK and my gf(/fiance) recently broke up with me, we had only been going out for like 3 months but I knew that I was in love with her.. most of the time we spent together was amazing, we had fun, we were friends before so we knew each other, - whilst the last 2 weeks were really rough I just thought it was something small (she quit smoking when it started and she has manic depression) I thought she was just angry or frustrated with college. But she said that we needed to talk, she said that she really didn't think she was much of a relationship person and that she had thought that she loved me, but that she didn't, she said she was bored and she felt trapped, I was so upset I was crying for hours and I haven't properly been able to focus on anything or anyone since, it's really broken my heart that someone who I loved so much and whom I thought was perfect, the girl I was sure I would marry and have a life and children with was never in love with me.. I feel so depressed all the time I wish I was dead and that someone would kill me. I just can't handle this, I'm trying to socialise with her but if I'm not drunk or on some form of medication then the minute after she leaves I just stop and cry, she says she doesn't miss me at all, apart from as a friend.. I always tried to make her feel wanted I said I loved her every day, I just don't know what went wrong, it seems like ever since we had sex (both for the first time) that she can't stand me.. I'm still in love with her but part of me wants to hate her, what should I do? I wish she'd come back to me, I know that we're perfect for each other on the inside and I try not to imagine what my life will be like knowing that someone who I feel this way about just doesn't feel the same way and probably never will..

I'd really appreciate any help that people could give, thanks.

[Imperfection]

This is a late answer but I had just seen this and I'm basically going through the same thing, my ex of October I loved, and thought she was perfect and amazing etc, how ever she never loved me back which didn't really bother me since we were going into 3 months relationship. But what you should really do, for yourslf is MOVE ON. It's going to be hard, I've been trying and I'm still not over my ex and in a few months you may still not be over yours, but it takes time and you will. Just try to see friends and get your mind off her. The first step is to realize she's not coming back and then from there stay occupied as much as you can. It's going to be harder than anything else but just keep in thought that you are 16 and there is still a lot of girls out there and you'll find one to marry and have kids with.