[needaspark]

My boyfriend and I have been together for about 2 years now and have been living together for about a year. We don't have sex anymore like once every two months. I have tried many times to talk to him about this but never goes anywhere and I never get any answers to... WHY? I have tried touching on him, walking around naked, dressing sexy, and even asked him for us to go to see a sexual therapist. The answer is no. I am at my wits end here. My self-esteem is really becoming affected. Every time I go shopping I always try to think if he will think I am sexy enough in this or that. I have tried new things with my hair i.e. he said he liked the blonde in it before so I put blonde in it. I recently just thought about a boob job but I think that might be a little much when he can't even talk to me about this. Our lease is about to be up and I am not sure if I even want to sign another. I don't even know if I want to be with him still because of this. Then I think it is selfish of me to think this way. Sex isn't everything but it is the intimacy that comes with sex that I want more than anything. I want to feel sexy again. I know that I am a attractive girl but this is really taking a toll on me. And even when we do have sex I have anxiety on performance whether I should do this or that; will he like this maybe not. I can't even enjoy it myself! I don't know what else to do.. He said like 4 months earlier that he wanted to try to have a baby but you need sex for that and it seems like we should be having more sex. Someone please help tell me something!!