[up424days]

I know that I suffer from more than one type of depression. I've been like this my whole life and it only gets worse with age. I have lots of depression symptom, I've taking antidepressants.
But lately little things have seem to stress me out so much more. I have lots of mood swings several times a day. I get so angry and I really don't know where all this angry comes from. And I end up just blowing up, yelling, arguing, I throw things, ill punch walls and sometimes myself. I get so anger that ill cry and cry and this several times a day too. Everything just seems to get to me to stress me out so much. No one understand how I feel. I've just to explain it too my boyfriend but he thinks I just need to stop being angry. He says I'm angry all the times offen picks at me about having 3 levels of angry. I just get so angry that I can't control it. I'm afraid I'm going to hurt myself. I don't know what to do I feel so alone. I've seen snapped at people I don't normally. But mostly my boyfriend gets most of it, I guess because I'm always around the most. I'm so afraid that he going to end up hating me, if he doesn't already. Everything just seems so hard and I can say I have thought of giving up. Its getting so hard for me to deal with myself on a day to day bases. And I really do hate myself. I'm so tired of hurting , hurting the people around me. This is just not something that has just happened in passed year, I have dealt with this most my life. My boyfriend doesn't understand why I want him to go everywhere with me when I leave my house, he doesn't understand how hard it really is for me to do everyday things. He does get upset with me and I've tried to explain it to him the best I know how.

[sadiesmom]

you didnt say how old you are. It could be your hormones. sometimes anti depressants stop working and you may need to switch to something else. are you still in therapy? barbara

[J_9]

I agree with Barbara. It could be hormonal. It could also be that the current dosage of your meds need to be adjusted, or changed completely.

I am interested in finding out if you are still in therapy also?

What meds are you taking?

[up424days]

I'm 24 and I've been taking 20mg lexapro I did go to therapy but haven't been in awhile because of lots of reasons but I planned on trying to get appointment next week

[J_9]

Okay, please make that appointment. It is possible that the Lexapro needs to be adjusted or changed. It is not at all uncommon to be on a variety of meds before finding the one that is right for you.