[sammiesaysstop]

I don't know what's up with me. I'm diagnosed with sever depression, bi polar mania, and I'm extremely suicidal. I don't know why though. I really don't have any reason for it. But anywhoo, my parents are forcing me to go to a therapist twice a month. And, I realize that thinking like this can't end well. But at the same time, I don't want to change. Thinking about or even attempting to kill myself... its like my safety blanket. I know its terrible. But I like it. Its where I'm comfortable. Is that messed up, or what! I guess my question is, does that make sense? Like at all? And... I've also been feeling super depressed lately, anyone know anyway to cheer me up?

[helpmepleaseee]

I know how you are feeling. You have to understand that most forms of depression aren't caused from things happening to you, it's a medical condition, it comes and goes unexpectantly. If you really can't decide to stay alive for yourself for the time being, do it for the people that love you, they're out there. I know that it feels impossible but life will get better, I can't tell you when, but it will happen. See the therapist and listen to what they say, they might be able to help, and if not.. oh well see another one. There is help for you, it may be medical or internal.. If you aren't given happiness, seek it, earn it.