[jswear28]

I have been going through hard times like a normal teen does. But lately, things have been getting harder for me. I am a really sensative guy and I can't control my feelings. I'm 16 and I'm feeling depressed. It started getting worse when this girl got involved. I am in love with her and she tells me that everything will work out in the end and that I shouldn't worry, but I worry everyday. She wants to wait until after high school for a relationship, but I have so much pain inside me and even though she tells me that she loves me and cares about me, I still see myself crying sometimes. I know she will always be in my life but I can't control my emotions. I have so much stress in my life, I get angry when I cry, and I often feel lonely. I try to redirect my thoughts and think good things, but it never works and I cry for no reason. When I cry all I say is why, why do I feel this way, why can't I just be happy with the way things are, why does it have to be me. It's getting so overwhelming and I don't know if I need professional help. I recently talked to my mom about it and have talked to this girl about it too. I don't know what to do. I hate going through life feeling this way. I just want to be happy.

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I have known this girl for a really long time. We used to just be friends but I have just fallen for her. I know it's love and I am willing to wait until after high school if that's what she wants. But the pain doesn't go away. I should be happy just thinking of her and how happy we are going to be in the future. But instead I have fear that it won't work out.

[jswear28]

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