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I am fighting all the time as I try to explain I am feeling I do everything to keep him happy. He has he mated styaing here and I noticed tat lhe forgets about me. We all wrent out and he hung with his mate and walked of on me and seemed to not care whfere I was. I have tols him he is inconsitent with his affection. He has been screaming at me and blames my menopause for everything sys Im doing his head In. I am so unsure I understand this guy and do my best. I feel he lost interest again. He focuses on other women when they talk to him, and I notice he does not look at me when I speak. Kto me its loke his not interested. I hae talked over and over about my feelings. And again he just does not seem to gete it. I have not fallen out of love with this guy and love hugging and kissing him all the time. He got angry at me and said what do you want me hanging of ;lyou all the time. I feel that if the feelings are still there he should want to do this. I say my feelings we fight he says his leaving and here we go again. He says I love you more with out looking at me. I am getting paranoid as he can sti for hours playing games and then go to bed and say his tire and says help yourself. Well really makes me feel good. I seem to need his afffection all the time. I am insecure and he has lied and chearted and all the things he said to me when we gotr back together have gone back to the old way. It hurts me whan he connects with other women when they talk and goes out of his way to do anything for them. I have ot remind him to get me a chair yet he offers other women. I see him trying to impress thenm. He should do that for me. I do not know if there is something wrong with me anymore. I seem so jealous and when I don't get his atttention it hurts. I have put on lots of weight. He seems to have it all goes where he wants and does wha the wants and I ask for something jor want ot talk he says what are you going to nail me about this time. I have thoughts about asking him to leave and go be sure I am what he wants. His says he wants me loves me with all his heart. Yet seems an effort and just says he loves me to shut me up these days. Why has he changed again he made me feel so special in the beginning why can't he still do this. Like do him. I think I have a serious jproblem and I need support from him. He has a shlprt fuse anddrinks lots of beer and snaps at the drpo of a hat. Seems to not want to do anything special for me unless I ask and then become a nag. I told him I feel we are din a cycle where he gets lme doing and treating him like a king then just takes me for granted. Know it is my own fault. Please any advise.
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