[purple_pixy]

I have been married for almost one year now. We are both just 22. I love my husband very much... but I think I got married for the wrong reason. Since I was 15 I've been dealing with major depression. When I met my husband I felt more alive, and happy and good about myself more than I ever have. So I thought, this is it, he's the one. Maybe I am naïve to make this decision at 22... Well anyway, I stopped taking my anti-depressants, because I thought I didn't need them anymore. Now everything has changed. Im more emotional, and basically just depressed. And I know its not making him happy either. He blames himself for me not being happy because he doesn't understand my diagnosis. He is from a different country and cultural background.. I don't even speak his language. (although I'm attempting to learn) I thought that because we loved each other so much and couldn't spend time apart, that everything else would just fall into place. Now it is one year later, and I find myself on this website wondering about our marriage. I don't know what to do.. I guess its obvious I should continue taking the medication... on the other hand it makes me gain weight and feel sleepy, which makes me feel worse about myself.

I really don't even know what my actual question is... but it would be great to have a reply. Just to know that someone out there knows what's going on, and took the time to say something. Maybe give a little hope. Thanks for taking the time to read all of this.

[timothy friel]

Well, first things first, get back on the meds, it obviously makes a great difference in your life, second, communication is the foundation for a healthy relationship, you need to find or make a way to communicate, if you are un-able to do this then I suggest ending the relationship but not before you get back on the (meds) that your #1 thing to do before you make any rash decision.

[I wish]

Your husband is being very loyal and faithful sticking by you. Hopefully he's being appreciated. But before you worry about him, you got to worry about yourself. Have you gone to counselling or therapy yet? You need professional help. You need to locate the source of your depression.

[simoneaugie]

There are many different meds for depression. Not all of them may work for you. Not all of them make you sleepy and fat. Work with a psychiatrist who is interested in finding the right one for you.