[rockergirl412]

okay well I just recently had a miscarriage and I'm confused about some things about ny ex and I. We began talking around October and by November we started be sexually attractive to each other... in the beginning of last month maybe earlier we had did do it... but I didn't expect to get prenant, but I do under stand condoms don't work all the time I was going to have my baby either way... but last week I miscarried my baby was holding on to a string and me getting hit with a soccer ball,during practice ended my chances... I didn't know I was pregnant I had suspicion but I said to myself no there's no way.. but I ended up coming out positvie I went to the doctor a few days later and got check to see if every thing had came out I was still early so I got lucky and didn't need to DNC but this is what I don't under stand I'm new at this miscarriage thing I never thought this would happen to me... but it did and life has to go on.. right but still hard to cope with losing the life of a soul hurts more then any thing I kind of had it in my head I was and thought about the possibility what if I am? U know.. but I told him I was... of course he said it wasn't his.. but then he said I have to check he started to have second thoughts.. and when I found out I began to get so upset I had so many opportunitys to go get checked and I didn't... I just took my own word for it which was dumb... last Friday he came up to me and huged me tight I began to cry my emotions triger so do my mood swing I get upset and angery fast I feel some times mad at the world... but then again I got another chance at finishing school... he on the other hand I'm not sure about he huged me and his eyes looked upset and confused a bit worried I was pale but this week has came by so fast not once has he came up too me and said any thing to me.. he takes different ways to class so I guess I haven't seen him and when I do it hurts to see he walks and I see him but he doesn't turn around or anything I still love him but losing his baby hurts me more.. and him egnoring me hurts me even more... its like I don't know what I did wrong to him =[ and I don't see talking to him will solve any thing I still going to be upset over my loss but I'm not sure if the way he's acting is what is exepted of aa guy.

[neverme]

I'm so sorry that you had to go through this, I can only imagine how upsetting this must be for you.


And to have to do with a selfish... like that treating you this way, well that can't help.

The only thing I can say about this guy is that at least you found out now, rather than a while down the line, that he has no moral standing or ethics.

I would highly recommend that you go to see a counselor. This is not something a woman, of any age, should have to go through alone.