[icantakethis]

I am currently dealing with the worst case of being a best friend and a wife to two bipolar people in my life. One is hospitalized the other is living with me whom is my husband. He is hiding thing and lying to me I have severe depression since my grandmother past 2 yrs ago. I am starting to feel like there is no hope for me. I need help of someone who knows what I am going through. Sometimes I wonder why I am existing I just want to crawl into a ball and die than deal with this anymore. I have been with ny husband half of my life but the thing is that he was diagnose 5 yrs ago. I can't take the roller coaster ride of pain and when I feel like I am falling his family is not there to support me. No one is I feel alone. He has a money problem and I feel his hate on me every day how do I let go how can I make it on my own?
I feel like I am stuck can somebody help me anybody.

[Clough]

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[chuff]

Do you have a job?

I think the first thing you need to do is see a doctor for depression.

[anthony1222]

I understand you're going through a lot right now and it probably feels like you're being crushed by everything that's going on...
The biggest thing you need to do is take these problems one at a time.
To start, try and work things out with your husband, communicate and explain how you feel.
Then you need to move on from your grandmothers death. I realize how hard it is but at some point you need to try and move on with your life.
I hope that helps a little, please try and provide more specifics about the situation

[liz28]

When your dealing with someone that suffers from bipolar the ride is going be bumpy with up and downs. Does he takes his medicine and seeing his theraphist? Think you need to be talking to a professional because your dealing with a lot.

My friend suffers from this and it isn't easy to deal because their mood can change within minutes and sometimes their reactions make you want to react. Luckily she ha calm down a lot because now she's taking her medicine daily.

I think you need some time to yourself. Do you've family or a friend to stay with? If your planing on leaving making it on your own might be scary or seems different at first but if you have determination you can make it just like everyone else. Making a plan can help because it gives you a guideline but sometimes even a well thoughtout plan can have detours. I hope you come back.