Don't want to be tortured anymore.
Hi,I'm new here. Here's the story. I got perfect family,physically. Emotionally I suffered for like 21 years already. My mother is nice although she's not the type of mother who listens and supports the children morally. My dad is... I just hate him and sometimes I wish him dead. I knew it's sinful to say that for all that he had done for me-donate the sperms,fed me etc but he can't stop verbally abusing me. He's an ex-army who basically always yell at people,criticising every bloody things on planet earth and a person who won't change. I realised that men never change,they are craps. Because of his presence,I have hated-men,myself,life,god,fate etc... I knew I'll never get family happiness like other normal people etc but it's not my fault to be born as his daughter! In da moment,I'm staying in campus,ignoring him as much as possible but I still feel tortured. Why it's always me? I mean I'm not rich,pretty,popular,lucky and I'm fine with that. The thing is I can't even smile often and even if I do,I'll fake it.there's no use of talking to him because he's low educated and never change. If my mother who happens to be pious-pray for his wellness for like 20 years still suffer of his personality,it's impossible for me to do the magic. Damn! Why me?
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