[sheyelo]

Well, nothing has changed since my last post the other night. I am still spotting, but not enough to even fill up one panty liner per day. No cramping or pain of any kind. I have been completely staying off my feet and continue to take my prenat vits. The er doctors said as of last Thurs I am about 5 1/2 to 6 weeks pregnant but no fetal heartbeat detected on the u/s. I don't have a obgyn appt until Monday at 12. I am still so nervous. I had a miscarriage last year at eight weeks. I am 41 and know that I am at high risk! I can't even get in to just have my hcg levels checked again. They were checked at the er last Thurs and were in the 9000 range and then again on Sunday and they were in the 8000 range. I just want to have them checked again but no one will see me until Monday. The waiting is driving me crazy! My breast are not sore anymore and the morning sickness has went away. I have been spotting for a week now. If my baby is gone, why is it taking so long for me to miscarry? I am very sad today! :(

[Alty]

I wish I could say that everything will be fine, but all I can do is hope that it will, much like you are doing now. I know how you feel, the waiting, the wondering, the hoping, and I really hope it works out for you.

I'd love nothing more than to take your sadness away, but until you know for sure, there's nothing I can say that will do that. Keep us updated, and with the risk of being politically incorrect, I'll pray for you and your baby.

Good luck.

[sheyelo]

Thanks altenweg for your response and for your prayers. It is a really hard time for me. Tomorrow is me and fiancee's 3rd year anniversary and despite what is going on with me, he is still going to a party with friends. Although I must admit, I did tell him to go ahead, but I thought he would have enough respect for what I am going through to say no. and I have a dr appointment on Monday, my first one, and I know they are going to tell me the bad news then, that is as long as nothing happens between now and then... but he will not be there with me. He is going on a trip with his father and another friend on the harleys for a "wild hog" advendure to the smoky mountains. Which should be our anniversary trip. I am so sad, mad and depressed! Oh well, that is life I guess. Going to be a lonely day tomorrow and next week!

[Alty]

I think hubby needs to get his priorities straight, and you need to tell him that you need him to be with you. It's your anniversary, and he's going to go party with friends, and you are pregnant and spotting and uncertain of what the future holds for this pregnancy. Tell him how you feel, sometimes we send mixed messages, so don't hold back, you need support right now.

I've been where you are now, my third pregnancy ended in miscarriage, I was 3 months along. I ended up having to get a D & C because the baby had died at 10 weeks and my body just wouldn't get rid of it on it's own, I almost died because I hemorrhaged and didn't get my butt to the hospital, I knew I was miscarrying, and I thought that all the blood was the baby passing. The pregnancy was unexpected but my hubby and I were happy about it, and the loss was very difficult.

Having said that, don't be so sure that it's over, don't burn those bridges before you've crossed. Wait and see what the doctor says, if the news is bad then you'll deal with it, because you sound like a very strong person, but it might not be bad news.

I'll continue to pray for you and you baby, I don't know what will happen, either do you, it's no longer in your hands, it's up to God and science. I will say this, if you start to bleed excessively and/or are passing blood clots, go to the hospital immediately.

If you need to talk, or to vent, or just to scream and cry, that's what we're here for. This site is full of amazing people, and I happen to know for a fact that they'll all band together and be here for you if you need them, myself included.

I hope it works out.