Hi Jay7375, I got your nice e-mail, thanks. Hope you got my response?. anyway...
Ughhhhhhhhhh... this happens a lot when people are together so long without marriage.
What do I always say...
Rule #1 - "People want what they can't have" Always! For ever.
Ok - see you guys were together so long you started to get laxed in TRUE relationship principles. You took each other totally for granted - AND I am sure TRUST and RESPECT were broken.
You MUST always have trust and respect. Always.
"The past 4 months I have called him almost everyday." Ughhhhhhhhhhhh NO! Wrong!! He knows he has you still. Always.
See - you need to cut off ALL contact now!! It may be too late to fix this. But, don't contact him - AND PLEASE DON'T answer his calls AND NO TEXT AND NO E-MAILS!! NONE!! END IT!!
YOU CAN NEVER change someone, ask them to change - EVER. THEY have to want to change. You can never convince someoen to like you - staying in contact WILL NOT help his heart grow fonder - ever at this point. ABSENCE, JEALOUSY, SHOWING YOU HAVE A LIFE, CHANGE ETC. WORKS.
He never wanted to marry because why should he? He already had you. He was happy and comfortable - you were way too available to him and he had no need for further commitment.
Then you nag and fought? - it was an easy out for him. WHY did you nag him? No guy wants a nag - EVER!! Ok? You think a guy will marry a nag? Seriously, I know that's harsh, but it true.
Ughhhhhhhhhh!! So many mistakes.
I am sorry - but he is being nice - 'fix himself' means seeing other people.
See being Too avaialbe to someone for 10 years is a bad idea. You needed to pull-back a lot. It sounds like you came on even strong and made demnads - never works.
STOP talking to him. And for the love of god stop telling him you misses him. You're a busy woman, do other things, friends, family, workout etc. You share your feelings now and he is repulsed inside.
He pittys you because you come across as needy - no one wants needy and desperate.
1. NO contact what so ever - even if you see him. Just say hi ay most. No info. For at leats 3 full months - MORE if you can wait. I fear though you're too needy to do this.
2. Work on improving yourself. Make a better self. Workout! YOU haveto change - remember to fun and care free. He doesn't want the pressure.
3. DATE!! Please date. He will hear about if he is friends with your cousin. Don't you tell him yourself though. You may find someone new?
4. Learn about how relationships actually work. Go to this site and read all the free articles:
http://www.lovetactics.com/ - this site will tell you how to turn the tables. There are some good books out there are well. It seems woman like : "he's just not that into you" - you can turn the tables. Also - it's older - some good advice for woman - The rules.
5. He wants a gal who has a life. You seem to have made him your life and tha tcreated this heartache.
6. Try to remember some of things he was attracted to when things went well. He WANTS they gal - NOT the Nag. All he remembers is the nag.
See - he should be calling you!! You contacted him WAY too much.
Please understand - you've made a lot of mistakes here. Especially after the break. SImple things like cutting him off, being less available, not returning his calls right away while dating, GOING OUT WITH friends while dating, being busy. I am sure you always answered his calls - always there for him. YUCK! You have a life SHOW IT!!