[lindajane]

Hello my name is linda. I can't stop the feeling that I want to just kill myself. I have nothing to live for. I everything up without even noticing it I have a girlfriend that doesn't want to be near me. All my friends and family hate me because I am with this girl and all she does is put me down and make me feel like crap but I love her and cannot be with out her. I'm so depressed I can't remember what it feels like to be normal. I am in a situation I can't get out of as well, me and my girlfriend have moved towns so she could be with her father which meant me leaving everything I had now she wants to move somewhere else and doesn't want me to go with her but she still wants us to be together. I genualy think she loves me but she treats me like a ! I really don't know what to do any more. She suffers from depression really bad so I have to be nice to her all the time and when we do argue I can't argue back because she threatens to brake up with me and that's the last thing I want or need I just wish there was a way I could tell her all this without it going wrong. At the moment all I feel is suicidal. I don't think I have smiled for a month now I just don't want to be here any more be for more bad things happen to me. Any advice? I want a simple life and me and my girlfriend to be OK.

[startover22]

I think it is time for a change sweety. You need to let her go and take care of yourself. If you really feel this bad, I want you to call the closest person to come and get you. Stay with someone you know for a while. You have gotten yourself in a very bad position. You shouldn't be cowering to her every need. Please get out of that situation ASAP! Hugs to you my new friend. When you are feeling strong enough to be alone, get your priorities in order and then start being happy again. If you want advice on how to do that, come back and talk about it!

[METERRE]

Hello there. I suffer from depression as well. And I sometimes feel like everyone is against me for a reason or another. But I learned that the most important person in my life should be me. No other person should take that spot, because if someone does, then I'm putting them above me, thus that's exactly what other people are going to do with me. They're going to put themselves first. I learned that I have to have self respect... if you're not OK with yourself, no one will be OK with you either.
I understand that you really love your girlfriend but love yourself first, and you'll see how things change for the better. So I agree with the above response... get the situation over with asap, you don't deserve to pay any price for something you can change.
Depression makes people feel like the whole world is against them and that no one appreciates them, that in fact, everyone is rude or something of that nature. But if it really is the case, it must be because they're not appreciating themselves.
Personally, for me suffering with depression and everything... I actually appreciate when people tell me the truth no matter how hard it is... that way it actually gives me the chance to change it, and learn. If not, I would be the same way or if I didn't want to change it I would be stuck crying or might've killed myself already.
Well I advice you to seek someone who you trust a lot, if there is someone, and talk to them about the situation and tell them to give an objective opinion as well as a personal one. Get not only yourself help, but also your girlfriend... do not leave her completely alone either even if you decide to leave. But definitely leave or do whatever you have to do so you can start healing and believing in yourself. Then see what happens with your girfriend and you.
I hope at least some of this is helpful. Good luck.