[heinz]

Hi,
Me and my girl are together 6 years.she is a warm loving person and showed her feelings for me all the time.she always told me how much she is in love with me.I am more cold,never showed my feelings or said anything in return.since a while she is not telling me anymore that she loves me.actually we lost each other a bit.we never lived together,but that was an agreement from the beginning on.than she said she needs time for herself.she had a lot to deal with the last few month,mother died,son moved back in,double shifts at work and heart problems.I was always and for everything there for her,but never told her how much I love her.now after we haven't seen ar talked to each other since two weeks I realised how much I love and miss her in my life.it drives me mad.I can't sleep,eat or focus on anything.she lives in the same street as me and since a few days the car of her sons father is parked in front of the house frequently.they split 14 years ago but they are still good friends.I don't know if he only turns up to see his son,or if there are really good friends and may be talk about her problem with me.I can't help myself and become jealous now,may be I am totally wrong with my idea.there was never ever any reason for jealousy in our relationship.I don't know if and whe I should try to contact her again.she said she needs time for herself to deal with all this matters,that we are allwys the best friends,I am still in her heart,she wants me still in her life but she don't know how everything turns out further down the track.she said:give me my time and may be I find my way back to you!I am in the middle of nowhere and have no idea to find back to her,or she to me.by the way,I am 45 and she is 48.I am driving myself mad and want her back in my life.I just can't handle this situation because I don't know what happens in the future!please can somebody give me a view good hints!GOD DAMN I LOVE THIS WOMEN!

[Dennis777]

Hello.

I know its hard for you right now but now isn't the time to be thinking negatively. As you said she never gave you a reason to not trust her before so why start now.

If you can't talk to her, send her an e-mail or better yet a flower that says something simple like "thinking of you".

[heinz]

Thank's dennis,

May be I made the mistake and sended her a big bunch flowers with a letter with my real feelings one day after the last phone call.she told me once after that that she really liked the flowers and the letters but I should have told her about my real love and feelings earlier and not now when it's to late.she said I can't give you what you want right now.