[yuipoi]

Well it all started way back in 8th grade for me. 7th grade for her.
We liked eatcother for exactly 1year and a half. And the thing is I never opened up to anyone. I never wanted to be with anyone so bad. There were other girls out there that were more prettier than her of course but for some reason. There was something there I couldn't resist. She was an amazing girl. She interested me in everything she said and I listened to every word. We tlaked as friends for the longest time and she was really shy. Eventually high school struck and we were still friends . I didn't ask her out because I thought it might be like a 2 week thing like all those other relationships. But one day on 11/17/06 she came up to me. And she was the one who ended up asking me out. She said to me "iv'e known you forever and that she wanted to be together" I said yes with amazing joy" We did fight on occasion but its not like it was always there(the fighting). I fell in love with her we were together for only 7 1/2 months i eventually ended up giving away my V-card(virginity) and so did she. Things were wonderful we tlaked everyday and everynight we talked on the phone until we passed out on it.(even on school nights) we would sit there. and seriously just talk there until 3 am until someone fell asleep. we met up at night snook out if we had to to see eathcother ... alone. We actually broke up for awhile. this happened one day at a huge fight at school i was yelling and i just dont think she cared. She broke up with me on the phone one day because her sister was saying" your going to break up with that boy right now" she called she did. I fell on the ground in my room crying on the phone . I had already said to anne that i was sorry for earlier and that i should have controlled myself better. We got back together but there were two things i found out. the short time when we broke up she played around with two other boys and that really upsetted me. I didnt want to take her back after that. But she was practically crying and said" she was upset about the breakup and she thought I would do things like that too" BTW her parents didnt want me to see her or talk to her. I took her back at the night we snook out . I picked her up and we talked for 3 hours about things .. we got to the point where i said. " I miss you so much " and i started to cry then we ended up doing a little something something in the car.we got back together.. and she told her parents she was seeing me again. Her mom said that she couldnt come to my house and that i was only permitted to go over there and there only until her mom said differently.Her sister didnt like me i dont know why. i have a 3.5Gpa and im not a annoying kid i sit and chil with friends at lunch thats it. So i have no idea why she would. Anyways, her parents think i have issues and that im emotionally unstable because i freaked out at school. it was just us two in the halls and the worse thing i did was throw and break my cellphone. ugh. But when we got back that second time. things went good for a month with 3 stupid fights. then I got arrested for curfew what was I doing sitting down on a bench with a friend. Her parents found out and I couldnt see her again. I wrote her parents and apology letter telling them if I made it seem that i was untrustful or that i have been a "amiss" kid to them(problem) so she said to me dnaiel I'm not aloud to see you or talk to you again. It broke my heart I started crying I didn't want to think it was real. She said I'm not breaking up with you for any reason. We stayed together.. just the thing was I wasn't able to see her we tlaked online bleh :p until school started up so we could see eatcother.. than we got into this argument I was controlling. (when I knew I really wasnt) her friend typed on the keyboard to tell that to me it was something to put on me . Something that I should feel bad for. I knew she was asking her friend wait why is he controlling? I think they just wanted me to feel bad for something . We broke up... MY heart hurts. I broke up with her because I couldn't take those kinds of things and she gave me an attitude. But now I think about it. Ididnt even think having sex with her or anything else we did meant anything to her. So please somebody answer my prayer and tell me what I should do :[ ty.

[steffy_bear]

Reading this was so touching to me. There aren't a lot of guys who would actually do this, or well that I have met. I think you should go with what your heart says. If you want to be with her for the rest of your life, go for it. But whatever happens happens. Everything happens for a reason and you have to accept that. So if it works, great, if it doesn't, you know there is someone else out there for you.

[yuipoi]

I can't really put this into words because. My last quesstion wouldn't let me put anymore in it .
Please read and help me someone. Its called "relationship first love" its in there.
But to get to the point . I didn't lose my girlfriend and the love of my life.. I lost my best friend too. :[

[diya]

I read your post and felt sad. Why should anyone be the center of universe for you? I agree, every relationship has some good times and memories that you can't erase, however, let those memories not erase you completely from your mere existence. By the looks of it, u're losing yourself to the point that you are seeking revenge. REVENGE is a very strong word... I know you're Angry and want to resort to destructive way of getting it out... right? Anger is a good emotion when it is under control, but at this point in time it is controlling you. It's lot like money in your hand. Hold the money and it's unusable. Throw it carelessly away and it is of no value. Its value is released as u spend it productively. Get a life... the choice to get a life heightens your awareness that you a unique, separate and distinct individual, responsible for your own happiness. Reacting to what others do will only make them more important than you... would you want that? You are an important soul, what she has done to you, that is her doings/KARMA and she will have to repay for it... and what you do will come back to you... so the idea is to adapt to changes in your life and get on with them... life is passing you by 100 miles a second... don't lose it.

[lmnotok]

C'mon, people, he is just grade 8-10, things like this happen to people that age all the time. Well, I'd say, you're nice guy, but you need to grow up. And focus on your career, rather than missing and regretting about her all the time. I know your mind is messed up, but look, staying friends is good, you both don't lose her and will not have any more heart attack when something unwanted happens.

[steffy_bear]

C'mon, ppl, he is just grade 8-10, things like this happen to ppl that age all the time. Well, i'd say, you're nice guy, but you need to grow up. And focus on your career, rather than missing and regretting about her all the time. I know your mind is messed up, but look, staying friends is good, you both dont lose her and will not have any more heart attack when something unwanted happens.

Yeah, you could be right. Growing up isn't always easy. I am not the oldest person and I have been through this kind of stuff. I still hang on to the guy I thought was for me. But hey, who knows maybe we will get back together in a few years like him and I planned when his parents didn't think it was a good idea.