Did I make the right choice?
So yesterday at 4 my girlfriend called me. She said "i'm sorry" I said for what? She said you'll find out in a few hours... so I make her tell me what she's sorry for. And she makes me promise not to try and do anyhting about it to just let it happen. So she tells me she's in her garage with the door down and the car on... I jump out of bed kiss my mom by and race to her house. I get there and start pounding on the garage. She won't open it. She puts her hand to the window and I put mine. I tell her not today, that I need to see her one more time, she can do it later, just not today... then I tell her if she doesn't open the door I'm calling 911. I hang up and pretend to dial, just giving her 1 last chance before I bring the cops in... and she opens it... she is furious with me... I run and turn off the car, and as I do I see a note lying there in the passegers seat. I grab her and carry her outside to get some fresh air.. as she is pouting and trying to push me away. I make her promise me she won't kill herself... I make her pinky promise. And then she screams "i hope your happy that by not letting me die your making me suffer in pain!" and slams the door in my face. So I knock gently. Then I open the door but do not enter. it's not my house and I don't want to do anyhting that seems aggressive... so I wait for her to come with me... I know I must leave soon for her if parents come home and I'm there they'd kill me. So I make her promise one last time. Then I ask for a kiss, but she says no. so I kiss her on the cheek and turn away. She pulls on my arm and gives me a kiss... then I leave for work.
Later that night at work her mother calls me, saying she found out we went behind her back and hung out on st patricks day (we can't see each other because her rents found out we we're having sex, we're both 18) she screams at me and calls me a drunkard and a pill popper and says I can never see her or her family again and hangs up.( we drank a little but not much, cause here in cleveland st patty's day is a huge event) 15 minutes later I get a phone call. It's her mom saying taylor ran away. I look for her for 3 hours... I get home at 2 am on a school night. And I see her on the side of my house. The last place I thought she'd be cause she hated me. I ran to her and embraced her then sat her down in my car and drove off... we sat and talked for a bit, she ran away because they we're going to make her dump me, sign her into the hospital, and her dad was screaming and swearing in her face saying he was going to pound her face in.
Now her parents are calmed down. For they love there daughter they just get hot headed and are super control freaks. So her parents we're decideing whether to call the police before ei left there house to go to mine. The thing is from taylor's suicidal attempt earlier we didn't know if she was trying to do it again or if she'd come back home. Now if they call the police it goes on her record and then west point would kick taylor out. So I had to have her call her mother and go home. And I did. And I took her home and didn't speak that much. Because I refused to cry. I decided I cry too much. And that right now I have to be unbreakable. And that's what I am. So I take her home and her mother gives me the first hug she ever gave me. And I've been dating her daughter for 7 months.
Now see the thing is this, by taking her home and giving her to her rents, this means I won't be able to go to prom with her. I don't even know when I'll be able to see her again if I can ever again. Because she ran away, and her mother blames me. When it's her mothers fault for making her choose between the 2 people she loves most. If I would have not taken her home and taken her somewhere else or not had her call her mom after a few minutes. Then they would have called the ploice, and taylors future, all her hard work, would have went down the drain.
Did I make the right choice? Or will she hate me forever...
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