[diamonddarkangel]

I've been dating my boyfriend for 5months now, it seems to have gone really fast, and i truly love him. Hes the first person ive had a proper relationship with, but im confused about what i want in the future.
In bed hes always all over me, asking for sex, but as he never has any protection i always refuse. Its also all about him, he never wants to do anything for me, if u know wot i mean.
But then later when i tell him he needs to get something, or let me go on the pill, he says no, hes not ready.
Our relationship has had a fairly low profile, he made me promise to keep it that way. But recently i let it slip that ive given him a bj, all his mates started asking him about it and he went mad at me! I explained that i didnt think it mattered what other people think, and he shouldn't either, but he still lets it get to him.
When i ask him why he doesn't want sex he uses this as an excuse, that it really bothers him. also says he wants our first time to be special (we're both virgins), that hes not got the time, not ready, anything!
Ive felt ready for this for a long time, and its not that i dont love him, its just i wanna live my life to the full, and im afraid he wants us to be foreva, im not ready to settle down yet. Should i continue seeing him and wait, or something else
sorry if this is a bit long, jus thought i might explain properly, and i apologise if i sound really immature, but this is what i think. I always thought it was girls that say "no im not ready", not the guy!! im confused, any advice would be appreciated.
ta very much

[EllieBrown]

Could he be just as afraid as you are because he doesn't want to be bound to you by sex.. I don't know, just putting it out there

[Fr_Chuck]

Good for you, no protection, no sex.