[beth911]

I'm afraid of a lot of things that envolve people or being seen. I mean like deadly afraid and too afraid to even tell anyone. Im afraid of so much stuff . Itd rediculus. I don't know how other people aren't this way.
I'm afraid to even tuen my work in at school. Or talk, look nice, everything. When I am at school I just sit their and never talk or do anything and I for some reason always bite down on my tongue all day and try not to even move... however when I get home I am a little different. I try to look my best and I wish I could at school but I'm afraid. I talk a lot at home and I wish I could at school but I'm afraid of that tooo and I'm more active at home when t school I almost look like I'm just dead or something.
But I'm afraid of things at home too.
Like saying or doing certain things when people are around.Most of it envolves doing homework and talking about school.
I fail all my classes because I'm so afraid.
Why am I like this?
The4irs so much more I'm afraid of.

[beth911]

And its like I can't control this no matter how bad I want to... like I'm just someone else or something. Like I really am dead. I don't know, but I want to be differnet and I'm too afraid to I guess