[bigbird213]

Hey starty,

I slept all right I suppose. It wasn't much of a sleep, I'm very tired right now at work, looking forward to a nap when I get home. I need it. Working 9 hours on 4 hours of sleep is a little rough.

I'm still a little down in the dumps, but I'm starting to even out. I try to think rationally about the things that I saw. For example, I know nothing about him, and there is no indication that there is anything between them. And as far as the drinking thing, when we broke up she told me that one of the issues she wanted to solve was her being so uptight and making huge deals about things which shouldn't be... maybe she really is trying for herself.

Either way, I'm going to keep on going through the day. My lunch break might last a little long as I'll for a nice little drive, but I'm hanging on.

[startover22]

Ohhh, I love drives, good music, a water bottle, a snack and more good music! It always seems to get some emothions out for me. Good and bad! A nice little drive is a great idea! I hope you get a good nap when you get home. Work hard today and keep your mind off things! Hugs!

[bigbird213]

Thanks,

I'll do my best. I just wish I could shut certain thoughts off, keep certain images out of my head. That would be a great invention.

[startover22]

That would be boring...
Biggie, everyone gets heartache, it makes us appreciate the real love and good people in our lives. Remember you are going to be all right! ;) I just know it!

[bigbird213]

That's true,
I just need to remember that everything that's coming up seems so much worse to me now that I am down. Things I thought wouldn't be a problem for me at all seem like they will kill me now, but I guess as my mood changes, so will my opinion on those things (anniversary, her upcoming birthday, etc)...

Such is life, right?

[startover22]

Such is life, yes. BUT Biggie, I put this quote in another thread... it can go two ways.

"Don't cry because it's over, Smile because it happened."
"Don't cry because it happened, Smile because it's over."

Either way it could apply and I really know you, with time will feel better and all of these feelings may never go away, but they won't feel like they do today! They won't diminish they will fade... into the back groud of your "new" life!

[bigbird213]

Starty,

That means a lot. It just sucks a little bit because I was doing so well. I knew I was ahead of schedule and was starting to feel invincible. Its okay though, I'll be back there in no time. It just takes time.

[startover22]

Starty,

That means a lot. It just sucks a little bit because I was doing so well. I knew I was ahead of schedule and was starting to feel invincible. Its okay though, I'll be back there in no time. It just takes time.

;) ;) ;) ;) :D Thatta boy!

[bigbird213]

;) ;) ;) ;) :D Thatta boy!!

I love this place...

Funny how people I don't know and will probably never meet can make me feel so much better. Its just about lunch time, what should I get??

I'm thinking a salad... trying to keep my diet healthy. Good thing I'm not an emotional eater!!

I have to be sure I'm ready to be single on the beach :) I got the gym under control, just have to keep the diet under control.

[startover22]

SUBWAY! Love it and you can have a man sammich if you want to, you deserve it!;)
I am a sucker for salad, I love that. Oh great when the girls get back they are going to be mad cause we are talking about food!
Single on the beach? That sounds like a drink! LMAO

[bigbird213]

It does sound like a drink now that you mention it.

That's what I'll do, I'll invent a drink from myself. It'll be a smash, I'll famous and rich.

Subway does sound good. I was boycotting subway for a while as I thought it was rediculously expensive, but the $5 footlong is a good deal.

[startover22]

Remember me... LMAO

[bigbird213]

LOL

Will do, I'll be back in a bit. Lunch / Drive / Music / Let go time :)

[startover22]

Let goooooooooooooooooo!!
K, have a good lunch!

[bigbird213]

Hey starty,

That was a fun lunch. Took your advice and got some subway. Its gorgeous outside here today, probably approaching 90 and sunny. My arms were hurting a bit (I got sunburn the other day) but it was good. In a day or two it will be a nice tan :)

Good call on the Subway too. The girl behind the counter was a cutie...

[startover22]

Hey starty,

That was a fun lunch. Took your advice and got some subway. Its gorgeous outside here today, probably approaching 90 and sunny. My arms were hurtin a bit (i got sunburn the other day) but it was good. In a day or two it will be a nice tan :)

Good call on the Subway too. The girl behind the counter was a cutie...

She could sing to you like this...
"Biggie Biggie Biggie, can't you see, sometimes your words just hyptnotize me, and i just love your flashy waysa" LMAO Good lunch? Very nice!!

[bigbird213]

Oh boy, giggly again I see...

Should be another entertaining day then. I'll have you all fired up by the time everyone else shows up.

[startover22]

I love that song... I also like others. I went on a drive to meet the family where they were camping, I put in one of the OLD CD's my oldest son made a about a year or two ago, it had... "Make me a grill" I was laughing so loud in the truck all by myself... there were other songs but that one got to me big time! LOL
He said (when I finally made it there) Mom, you are such a dork! Whatever...

[bigbird213]

I really know next to 0 rap/hip hop songs. I'm lucky I recognized the first one you mentioned. I pretty much listen to EVERYTHING else, but not so much that stuff...

Got to love music though, its good for any mood. Amazing how it can really change how your feeling... That's the main reason I started playing guitar - it's a great hobby.

[startover22]

Ohhh you play a guitar. NICE! I am not musically inclined, but if you know me, you will know I will be the next PROFESSIONAL lip syncer of the world. You have seen me in my car, I am the lady that lets it all go... but tastefully of course:)