[Wondergirl]

Try getting my hormone tested.

Ah, good! Please keep us informed as to how things are going.

[N0help4u]

Is it chromosomes that can tell?I knew a girl that said she was like a guy because her chromosomes were more male
But she was born a girl.

[J_9]

Is it chromosomes that can tell?I knew a girl that said she was like a guy because her chromosomes were more male
But she was born a girl.

It's a little more involved than that.

[CharmYou]

Is it chromosomes that can tell?I knew a girl that said she was like a guy because her chromosomes were more male
but she was born a girl.

Sorry if my words are offensive but I think what you are saying has a connotation on "You were worn a freak. Genetical freak."

I don't really think I was born different than anyone..

[N0help4u]

Yeah, I kind of figured. Seems to me the OP needs to figure a way to be more of a man and less focused on over thinking what his actions should be.

[J_9]

Seems to me the OP needs to figure a way to be more of a man and less focused on over thinking what his actions should be.

Typical stereotype. You can't ask someone to be something other than they are. You are implying that this is a choice, when it is not.

[Wondergirl]

Sorry if my words are offensive but I think what you are saying has a connotation on "You were worn a freak. Genetical freak."

I think what she is saying is that this could be a transgender situation -- at birth a person is identified as either a boy or girl, but inside that person, he or she is exactly the opposite. It's a fairly new area in medical science.

[CharmYou]

I think what she is saying is that this could be a transgender situation -- at birth a person is identified as either a boy or girl, but inside that person, he or she is exactly the opposite. It's a fairly new area in medical science.

I am not! Is this how straight people view gays? Thinking gays are born with a freaky chromosome? Yes, there truly is someone who is in this situation but it's really rare. Most gays are not! And I can say that this has nothing to do with my personality..

Typical stereotype. You can't ask someone to be something other than they are. You are implying that this is a choice, when it is not.

Human changes.
If I could be happier by changing myself, I would try.
If I can be happier by changing myself, I will try.
If being myself means being hated and isolated, I don't want to be myself anymore.

[J_9]

I really think there is a communication issue here.

You were born a male with a penis and a scrotum. Gynecomastia is more common than people think, or would like to admit, and has nothing to do with sexuality, whether it be heterosexuality or homosexuality. So, let's leave that out of the equation.

Transgendered means that you were born a male, but feel like a female. A transgendered woman prefers to dress and act like a male and a transgendered male prefers to dress and act like a female. I don't see that as an issue here. Take Chastity (Chaz Bono) for example.

What is happening here is that the OP was born a male and is homosexual. There is nothing scientifically that proves it is hormonal, genetic, cultural, or a product of environment that causes this to happen.

Hormones can be tested, tests can be run. But there is no scientific proof as to why one gender prefers the same, or why one gender prefers another.

The problem I see with the OP is the over-reacting when the book is taken away, the hug is not reciprocated, or the clothing is not affordable. This has nothing to do with sexuality, but more to do with mentality.

[LadySam]

Back to the issue of hormones, if I may. J-9 is correct hormones have nothing to do with WHO you are. From personal experience I can tell you that testing and even with hormone replacement therapy the only noted changes were physical, they in no way affect your mood or personality.
At least not in my case.

[CharmYou]

The problem I see with the OP is the over-reacting when the book is taken away, the hug is not reciprocated, or the clothing is not affordable. This has nothing to do with sexuality, but more to do with mentality.

Absolutely, you took the words right out of my mouth...

I have had moobs since I was 9. This might be caused by hormonal imbalance. When I was at elementary school, many kids made fun of me. But I did enjoy some of the good-looking boys caressing my moobs. I felt pleasure when my moobs were caressed. And at the same time, I felt a crush on the boys who caressed my moobs. Then, I decided I was gay. Does this has anything to do with my personality?

[J_9]

I have had moobs since I was 9. This might be caused by hormonal imbalance. When I was at elementary school, many kids made fun of me. But I did enjoy some of the good-looking boys caressing my moobs. I felt pleasure when my moobs are caressed. And at the same time, I felt a crush on the boy who caressed my moobs. Then, I decided I was gay.

Moobs?

[CharmYou]

And what does being myself mean? If I define myself as a thief, then I can steal because I should be myself?
Thieves can be educated to be a good person. So if what I was doing is wrong I am willing to change myself, change my personality in order to be more acceptable.

Moobs?

A term refers to man's boobs..

[J_9]

Okay, but "moobs" has nothing to do with your sexuality.

If I define myself as a thief, then I can steal because I should be myself?
Thieves can be educated to be a good person. So if what I was doing is wrong I am willing to change myself, change my personality in order to be more acceptable.

Huh?

[CharmYou]

Huh?

Because I hate being hated. I hate the "myself" that is not acceptable, that is a freak... I hate I way I am..

[J_9]

You need more help than we can provide here. You need to see a psychologist or a psychiatrist.

[joypulv]

Speaking as woman who spent 38 of my 66 years going through very obvious mood changes every month, clearly hormonal, I find it odd that anyone would flat out deny the role of hormones in anyone's actions. Testosterone, steroids, adrenaline, you name it, there's a behavior that is often associated with it.
Here's a quote from an abstract from some researchers at U of Colorado:
1.1.2. Feminization as an active or passive process?
Much of the evidence about both physical and behavioral
Sexual differentiation focuses on the masculinizing effects
Of androgens. For a long time, it was believed that
Feminization is a passive process, occurring in the absence
Of high levels of androgens. There is increasing recognition
Of the importance of other hormones for complete
Feminization, but much is still unknown about this process.

I'm not discounting the need for some therapy. But there may be a basis for the behavior that if corrected, could make it easier to change his actions. Standing in a store for a very long time, angry over being denied a bargain, sounds like an emotional problem, and it could also be a huge rush of who knows what mix of hormones.

I had a boyfriend with moobs (I like that word, never heard it before) who was as mild mannered as a person could be, so I wasn't suggesting any sort of direct connection.

[talaniman]

You are no freak, just out of control, and that because you have a selfish, impulsive need for acceptance (attention) even by inappropriate actions. You are hardly the first teen ager/adult who has poor coping skills or poor guidance in this area. Its more common than you think, so don't isolate yourself as being a freak or psycho, just know and learn there are better way to deal with yourself.

What I tell impulsive selfish people is to think before you act, or speak, then you will not have to answer for out bursts of anger, or bad inappropriate behavior. It a process that takes much practice, and learning patience goes with the territory. Maybe you cannot afford therapy to guide you to learning, and using these skills, but a physician may help you not be overwhelmed and emotionally charged during times of high stress over small events you normally run into.

You start small by accomplishing small things like observing how people interact, and gain confidence by showing people the same dignity and self respect you want from them. High drama doesn't work on strangers, or friends so stop blaming your actions, on your moods, or feelings when you need to take responsibility over yourself and change what you can, which is your actions.

My suggestion, is you talk to your own family doctor about your feelings that seem to overwhelm you, and how you can better control your impulses. You already should have accepted you cannot win friends by acting like a fool, and disrespecting those you encounter. You want to be accepted, then you must make yourself and your actions acceptable.

No more excuses, get some dignity, and self respect before you expect it from others.

[joypulv]

"But after getting rejected, I was much more conscious of my smile because I actually wanted to cry. However, I continued faking the smile because I didn't know what facial expression I should have worn. By still conscious, I mean I could still think... So, I was just standing there hours and hours doing nothing but wore a faking smile... like an idiot... "

I really want to know: are you exaggerating the 'hours and hours,' or not? If you are, and it was really just some minutes, I'm in the get therapy camp. If not, there might be something wrong with you, something neurological like catalepsy, along with hormonal problems! How are we to know the truth? You need to be exact here.